It was Christmas Eve night and all threw the gran gran’s house mice were scuring becasue

when it comes to household chores my dad is never hurrying

I have overheard it’s because he is lazy and or crazy but he always seems to be working

when you family gets divided, your hear multiple versions

I swung the tip of my nerf sword at a mouse who was nibbling my toes, and brought the foam handles down on the rodent climbing up my clothes.

I saw the light from where dad does his work, by work I mean typing and laughing to himself.

What are you working on.

he was swirling his hands like he was trying to not loose touch with imaginations he was summoning before I came to interrupt

If he was terse it would mean I’d only be on the back burner, until he worked out whatever he was focused on, if a torrent of words came out he was in manic mode and I’d only be there to help tear down, and redecorate the thoughts in his mind again and again, either way once I saw the hands swirling I should have known he was self centered

I’m working on if I should just quit

Quit, I thought we never quit?

Right we never totally quit working, I mean quit these stories?

Oh how come

First Tell me about you what’s on your mind?

Really. I was going to ask since I’m awake if you wanted to play Roblox with me.

Not really, I was just asking so in the story I’d look kinder and less self centered than I usually am.

Oh ok, should you go back to telling me about why you thinking about quitting, and am I being a good extension of your will?

For starters maybe instead of blasting off these condemning stories, I should spend more time building relationships with people before I have the permission to speak conviction into their life?

that doesn’t sound like you?

I know it’s phraseology I have heard to say how I evangelize is unloving and wrong,

What does the Bible say

Jesus didn’t wait long to convict the woman at the well, for having had multiple husbands, the apostles didn’t wait long to tell people to repent, but I’m not them. I wish I had a formula to know exactly when I should convict someone. But is feels off to have an exact formula which kinda cuts out being lead by the spirit, all thewhile trying to persuade someone into having a closer relationship with the Holy Spirit.

ok, well at least you sound at peace with putting the perfect formula to rest. Can I ask something else that’s related but a little off topic?

You knew that I love to be interrupted from my train of thought.

Why do people say the stories you make are not work?

Who says that? Never mind. I don’t get paid for it. and people usually use the word work as something you wouldn’t do unless someone paid you

But i heard some people say they love their job, they would do it even if they weren’t paid

Most people wouldn’t and if you dig around people who say they do, you find buried aspects of the work they don’t like to openly display.

But you have said you like your work

I do say that, but I don’t know if it’s a mental trick or what I think you are supposed to say. King Solomon and other parts of the Bible it does say to try to enjoy your work, or even take the verses that say we should be grateful to God about our lives, even up to persecution. Yet I don’t think Jesus was just beaming positive vibes on the road to his crucification, and I wish I could come up with exact formula,

I thought you said formulas

I know I was displaying my fallen inner workings to you, I repent.

Originally Work is a curse from God after the fall in the garden of eden, that from now on we’d have to sweat through painful labor, with thorns and thistles just to eat. meaning part of our punishment or reminder that we are cursed is to go through things we wouldn’t want to just to survive

I thought you said people feel good after they work out and endorphins

God was gracious enough to set up some biological relief after you did your time in the curse,

Going back to what you said earlier is the only two reasons you want to quit is because you think your time would be better spent building relationships that you can then in 70 years have the permission to slowly start to point someone to repent and believe? Or instead of working on these you could work more overtime so you can hand over more child support.

No another reason is idolatry.

What I make even if my intent was to use this creation as a lure for lost people I quickly turn into idol. Instead of trying to get to know the creator of all things better / i try to get better at making these idols. Instead of being afraid of not knowing God I’m scared of losing my idols.

What do you mean loose them?

That the big social media sites will delete and block any trace of my creations, so i have to make copies, and copies of them and send them everywhere, so they can be eternal.

So you want them to be put to do good use, that doesn’t sound awful

the overriding error is I put more faith in my ability to save people than God’s.

Even though I know I’m imperfect and God is perfect, I still stumble by thinking, that I’m too essential that God couldn’t restock my idols without me.

Oh well at least you recognize that,

It’s even worse, i summae God is perfect, so he can’t best relate to imperfect people, but an imperfect person can better relate because they know all the wrong ways to do things, where a perfect God can’t even fathom how to do things so messed up

That sounds like a messed up formula, couldn’t a perfect being spot mistakes perfectly, and what the perfect solution would be.

Yes but when I’m taking my mind off of God and walking into deception grove no longer taking every thought captive, I don’t recognize the sin creeping in.

Didn’t Paul write

whether Paul plants or66 Apollo’s waters, it’s God that does the increase, so even if your stories would ever be effective it would always be because of God and never because of you.

Yes I’m not defending my sin, I’m confessing it.

that’s good, and to show that I’m not just an extention of you but to diferante myself as a unique creation of God, I want to say this. It’s good that you confessed the errors when your prideful motivations take over. but To try to have a formula or short hand way to relay complex information isn’t always bad. One of God’s first task for Adam was to name things, Jesus asked the demons what’s your name. To tell stories, isn’t always a sin, didn’t Jesus do the same.

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