What if the shame you've been carrying is actually the doorway to your power?
Most women have been taught — consciously or not — that their bodies are problems to be solved, their emotions are inconveniences to be managed, and their pleasure is a luxury they must earn. In this episode, Erin sits down with Laurel Ann Carter, a women's therapist of nearly two decades turned feminine embodiment mentor to dismantle that narrative at its core.
Laurel works with women across all life stages in areas of eating disorder recovery, grief, anxiety, and more. And what she's found is that beneath nearly every struggle lives the same wound: shame. Not guilt, not regret, but the deep, cellular belief that I am wrong. I am bad. I am not enough. In this conversation, Laurel and Erin trace how shame gets woven into a woman's relationship with her body, her behaviors, her voice, and her sense of worth — and why the “body positivity” movement, though powerful, is only the beginning, not the destination. The real work, Laurel argues, happens not in the mind but in the body — in the felt, somatic, lived experience.
This episode moves through grief as initiation, pleasure as power, and self-abandonment as a form of forgetting. Laurel shares her own descent — through the end of her marriage, loss, and grief — and how being broken open led her to rapture. Not the fire-and-brimstone kind, but the ecstatic, embodied joy waiting on the other side of the unraveling. Together, Erin and Laurel invoke the archetypes of Inanna and Persephone, the wisdom of Marion Woodman, and the ancient intelligence of women's circles to offer a vision of what it looks like when a woman truly steps into her full, unashamed, embodied power.
You'll learn:
Why shame — not guilt — is the root wound beneath eating disorders, people-pleasing, and self-rejection, and how to tell the difference
How the body positivity movement opened a necessary door — and what it's still missing
What shame alchemy actually looks like in practice — and why alchemizing pain is more powerful than transcending it
Why grief, rage, and discomfort are initiations, not problems to solve — and how sitting with them unlocks a deeper capacity for pleasure
The hidden link between pain and pleasure, and why your willingness to surrender into one determines your access to the other
How self-abandonment masquerades as love — and the ways women unknowingly give their power away by orienting to external authority rather than internal knowing
If you've ever felt you were at war with your body, your emotions were too much, or your pleasure was selfish — this conversation is medicine. Laurel Carter brings nearly twenty years of clinical wisdom alongside her own harrowing initiations to offer guidance for turning shame into sovereignty. This isn't “self-help”. This is soul work.
For more with Erin Pettis/Sea of Radiance:
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For more with Laurel Carter:
https://www.innerbodywisdom.com
https://www.instagram.com/laurelannthesandhill
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