You can choose gratitude, instead of this. Hmmmm, what is "this?" This can be anything you experience in your life. Allow gratitude to be the foundation of your life to keep you present and experience a lot of the goodness in your life. Something as simple as: breathing, a place to sleep, brushing your teeth, people in your life, etc. What does gratitude mean to you and do you feel it plays an important part of your life? How does gratitude show up in your life? A quote that I love is... "The more you give gratitude for what you have in your life, the more you receive to give gratitude for." This creates a spaces to look around and give continuous gratitude for life. A little challenge for you, if you choose to accept. Write down 3 things you are thankful for, why and how those things make you feel. A word that can fill you up more than any word is, "Thank you!" Try that on and see how it feels. I am excited for you and your gratitude!!!! You got this friend!