Why is it so hard to say sorry and then take responsibility for the change to make sure it won't happen again?

This isn’t really saying sorry at all. This is acknowledging you have done something wrong to get out of the guilt and shame you feel about the thing you have done.I am the king of saying sorry. Every opportunity I have there is always a thought to pass the hot potato to someone else.‘Passing the hot potato’ normally looks like me scapegoating or using the other person involved as my punching bag.In my daily experiment of The Whole Man I realize how abusive this characteristic is. I have also realized that this characteristic comes a lot from the belief I have always held that I have to carry everyone and everything I love in order to be a good man.But trying to carry all of these things has just led to more anxiety, trying to control every little thing and anger.I don’t have any answers just reflection but I think The Whole Man is patient and nurtures themselves in inner dialogue and external action.