What does it feel like to spend 31 years living a life that never truly felt like your own?

In this powerful episode of Secrets of the Underworld, Neil "The Muscle" Cummins sits down with Tayden Johnson, who shares his deeply personal journey of transitioning from female to male.

Taiten speaks openly about growing up in a small country town, coming out as gay before later realising he was transgender, the fear of disappointing his family, the unconditional support of his wife, and the difficult road to finally living authentically.

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Trigger Warning

This episode contains discussions of:

• Child sexual abuse
• Sexual assault and rape
• Domestic and family violence
• Trauma and its long-term impacts
• Adult themes and explicit sexual content

Some listeners may find this content distressing.

From the age of just four, Molly May's childhood was marked by abuse, trauma and silence.

In this deeply personal conversation, she speaks publicly about surviving years of childhood sexual abuse, witnessing domestic violence, being sexually assaulted as an adult, and the lasting impact those experiences have had on her life.

Molly also opens up about the choices she's made since, including building a career on OnlyFans, explaining why reclaiming control over her own body became an important part of her healing journey.

This is an honest, confronting, and emotional conversation about survival, resilience, and taking back power after unimaginable trauma.

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Jack Irish is a self confessed Sex Slave, in this episode he tells Neil about the dark underworld of BDSM and Sex Slave "Relationships"

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Former detective Mick Suesskow takes us inside the world of organised crime, from Western Sydney street work to Asian crime syndicates, illegal firearms, drug labs, bikie shootings and homicide investigations. But behind the big arrests and high-risk jobs is the toll it took, the trauma, the drinking, and the moments that stayed with him long after the shift ended.

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Rita grew up with secrets, fear and a father who lived two very different lives — gentle and loving one moment, feared and powerful the next. In this episode, she opens up about witnessing violence as a child, discovering who her father really was, and how she turned trauma into healing.

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Aubrey Black was raised Mormon, bullied at school, and became a young single mum — but no one could have predicted where her life would end up. In this unfiltered episode, Aubrey opens up about entering the adult industry in her late thirties, making serious money, dealing with stalkers, protecting her family, and why the comeback might be bigger than anything she’s done before

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In this powerful episode, Antoinette Lattouf reveals the personal toll of her ABC battle, the panic attacks, death threats, courtroom gamble, and the moment she finally won.

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He was a country kid with a cricket career ahead of him  until one violent night changed everything.

After a brutal assault left him with brain bleeds, PTSD and a body he had to rebuild from scratch, Mr Ink turned pain into armour. What followed was a life no one saw coming: gym obsession, adult films, OnlyFans controversy, public fallout with Bonnie Blue, and a reputation that followed him everywhere.

In this episode of Secrets of the Underworld, Mr Ink opens up about the attack that broke him, the industry that made him infamous, and the part of himself he’s still trying to protect.

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Former crime-scene cleaner Donna reveals what happens after the police leave from blood-soaked murder scenes and decomposed bodies to meth labs, hoarder homes and the cases she can never forget. She shares the confronting reality of making a scene safe again, the strange encounters that still haunt her, and the heartbreaking regret that changed the way she saw her work forever.

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Content warning: This episode discusses suicide, mental health struggles and traumatic injury. Please seek support if these topics raise concerns for you.

In this deeply personal episode of Secrets of the Underworld, Neil “The Muscle” Cummins sits down with Trent, who shares how a devastating childhood accident, family breakdown and years of mental health struggles pushed him into some of the darkest moments of his life.

Through it all, the music of DJ Alex K became more than just an escape it became a lifeline. Trent reveals the moment one Alex K song interrupted a suicide attempt, why the music continues to give him hope, and what he would say to the artist who helped save his life.

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