Okay… this is gonna be a little unhinged, because I had this realization like… oh.
I didn’t not do the work…

I just did a shit ton of work that didn’t actually change anything.

Like I could explain all my patterns, I could connect every single dot imaginable AND tell you why I was spiraling.....

while....actively still spiraling.  LOL So this episode is me basically calling that out.

I talk about:

•  how I spent years being “self-aware” but still stuck in the same cycles 
•  why healing actually feels like shit (and the second it does, we go find a new thing to try) 
•  the difference between understanding yourself… and actually not letting your emotions hijack you 
•  and how my brain STILL sometimes freaks out when I’m resting like “hi yes something is definitely wrong???” 

Also I said something in here that I can’t stop thinking about:

it used to feel like my emotions would grab me by the ponytail and just drag me around all day, & now… they show up…but they don’t have hands anymore.

Which sounds nice…until you realize you now have to SIT THERE AND FEEL IT.

Anyway.

If you’ve been on a “healing journey” for years and you’re like “why do I still feel like this???”

Hit play & spend 15 minutes with me today.