I started an antidepressant.

I didn't write notes for this one, didn't organize my thoughts, I just hit record on my voice memo app like I always do when I get the feeling that something needs to be said out loud.

If you saw my post yesterday you know I made the decision to start an SNRI.  There is no way to say everything that led to that decision in an instagram caption or a 30 second reel, so... here we are.

I've been living in this really confusing duality for a long time now. genuinely, deeply happy. and also the saddest I've ever been. both true at the same time. and I've spent this entire year trying to get to the bottom of it: HRT, trauma therapy, coaching, rest, pulling back on my business, all of it. I've exhausted every single tool in my toolbox except one.

This episode is about that one.

what we get into:

• the duality of being the happiest and saddest I've ever been at the same time
• complex PTSD, PMDD, postpartum depression, and what happens when you've tried everything else
• what my coach said to me mid-flare that finally made something click
• why I was against medication for so long and where that belief came from
• the moment — back to back family news in one day — that was my threshold
• the cycle I didn't realize I was repeating by staying stubborn about this
• why 100+ women commented on my reel saying they feel the exact same way (and what that means)

This isn't me telling you what to do, it's just me telling you my story.

If you see yourself in any of it... that's why I put it out there.

I did a 30 minute boredom experiment… no phone, no book, nothing in my hands, nothing to listen to… just me in a chair on my back deck and i thought it would be easy.

It was not easy.  The first 10 minutes my brain did everything in its power to avoid being still… planning, brainstorming, anything but the chair. and then somewhere around minute 10 something shifted and i started noticing things i hadn’t noticed in years… the birds, the wind, the smell of the flowers, my favorite tree. and i got kind of emotional because i realized how much of my life with my daughter i’m not actually present for. not because i’m a bad mom… because my brain doesn’t know how to turn off.

This episode is about what happened in those 30 minutes, why presence is so uncomfortable we avoid it without even realizing it, and why one of the brain games inside wired is literally just a 3 minute version of this. if you can’t sit with nothing for 3 minutes, you’re probably not as present as you think you are with the people you love. 

this one's got a little bit of everything... money blocks, marriage secrets, a solo trip glow-up, and my favorite new phrase, "you're glitching again."

Kayla sat down with me post-Wired and just started unloading the good stuff. First the money thing, she didn't think she was worth spending on herself, even though she'd casually drop the same amount on a family trip without a second thought. We dug into that for a minute (round of applause for her honesty).

Then she tells me about a trip she took with her childhood friends... no kids, no husband, and for the first time ever, no anxiety either. No shutting down, no leaving early, no upset stomach. Just an actual good time.

oh and she didn't tell her husband she signed up for Wired. at all. until he started noticing the difference himself.

in this one:

• the "world's on fire" urgency and what it actually quieted into
• the belief that she wasn't worth spending money on herself
• a solo trip with zero anxiety, no upset stomach, no early flight home
• the random brain stuff remembering numbers, finishing her sentences
• what she'd tell a mom sitting in that "I don't deserve this" feeling

her line that's been stuck in my head: "I'm still safe with going slower."

https://www.mnmfitnessco.com/wired

Dr. Katie Brockert shares how she found herself reaching for her phone during every quiet moment, at home, in social situations, and most painfully, while her young son played beside her. After installing app blockers that she'd immediately override, she knew something deeper was going on.

Through the Wired program, Katie had a breakthrough realization: she wasn't just scrolling mindlessly, she was using her phone to suppress emotions, a pattern she'd carried since childhood. That moment of awareness, she says, felt like "water being splashed on my face."

In this episode, we talk about:

• How postpartum life amplified her relationship with her phone
• Using scrolling as emotional avoidance, and the moment she connected the dots
• The shift she noticed in the 4–8 PM witching hour with her son
• How her son's behavior changed as she became more present
• Why she believes everyone thinks they don't have a phone problem, and why they're wrong
• Finding the "happy medium" with technology instead of going all-or-nothing

Favorite quote: "I don't know anybody who's like, 'I feel amazing after they've doom scrolled for two hours.'"

If you've ever wondered whether your phone use is quietly pulling you away from the life you actually want, this one's for you.

WIRED Starts June 22nd, 2026

https://www.mnmfitnessco.com/wired

Connect with Dr. Katie, a postpartum focused physical therapist that works with moms through her program, StrongHER Core.

Okay you guys, this one is so good and I think it's going to hit for a lot of you.

This episode was inspired by a conversation I had with one of my clients, and honestly? The awareness she showed blew me away. We've been working together on identifying the emotions that are actually driving her actions throughout the day, and what she shared with me was just chef's kiss in terms of how much she's grown.

We're talking about the two to three day benders. You know what I mean. The doom scrolling, the eating like garbage, the canceling plans, the not wanting to do anything. And I'm going to tell you the same thing I tell everyone, your phone is not the problem. The apps are not the problem. The problem is the emotion underneath all of it that nobody is actually helping you identify or deal with.

Blocking apps, locking your phone in a drawer, deleting Instagram for a month none of that is fixing what's actually going on. And I think deep down, most of you already know that.

We're getting into:

• Why your scrolling habit is really just an unmet need in disguise
• What my client's story taught me about the power of self-awareness
• Why willpower-based fixes will always make the urge worse
• What it actually looks like to have a neutral relationship with your phone

There is nothing wrong with you. There is just an emotion that nobody has helped you figure out yet. Let's change that.

Want to join the 243 people on the WIRED waitlist?  

https://mnmfitnessco.kartra.com/page/wired-waitlist

Okay… this is gonna be a little unhinged, because I had this realization like… oh.
I didn’t not do the work…

I just did a shit ton of work that didn’t actually change anything.

Like I could explain all my patterns, I could connect every single dot imaginable AND tell you why I was spiraling.....

while....actively still spiraling.  LOL So this episode is me basically calling that out.

I talk about:

•  how I spent years being “self-aware” but still stuck in the same cycles 
•  why healing actually feels like shit (and the second it does, we go find a new thing to try) 
•  the difference between understanding yourself… and actually not letting your emotions hijack you 
•  and how my brain STILL sometimes freaks out when I’m resting like “hi yes something is definitely wrong???” 

Also I said something in here that I can’t stop thinking about:

it used to feel like my emotions would grab me by the ponytail and just drag me around all day, & now… they show up…but they don’t have hands anymore.

Which sounds nice…until you realize you now have to SIT THERE AND FEEL IT.

Anyway.

If you’ve been on a “healing journey” for years and you’re like “why do I still feel like this???”

Hit play & spend 15 minutes with me today.

This one cracked me open a little.

I’m in a season I’ve never been in before… where I’m not chasing more in the way I always have, and honestly, I don’t fully recognize myself here yet.

In this episode, I share:

•  what it’s been like to feel my inner critic get quieter… and how unsettling that actually is 
•  how I used to chase achievement to feel enough, and why that doesn’t drive me the same way anymore 
•  the weird, uncomfortable feeling of contentment 
•  and the daily tension between the version of me that wants to push… and the version of me that just wants to be 

I cried in this one. I laughed in this one. I’m still figuring it out in real time.

But this is what it looks like for me right now.

WIRED: https://www.mnmfitnessco.com/wired

This one’s a bit of a rant… but it needed to be said.

After hearing multiple people say they’re afraid of failing, I’m breaking down what’s actually going on underneath that fear, and why it’s keeping you stuck.

Inside this episode:

•  why you don’t need fear to go away before making a decision 
•  how your brain is wired to fixate on worst-case scenarios 
•  the real reason change feels so hard (even when your current patterns suck) 
•  and what it actually looks like to move forward with fear still in the passenger seat 

If you’ve been sitting on a decision because you’re scared it won’t work… this is your nudge.

WIRED: https://www.mnmfitnessco.com/wired

This episode started with me painting my nails… and turned into one of the biggest realizations about burnout I’ve had.

I share a season where I felt completely disconnected, from my husband, my energy, and honestly myself, and the unexpected moment that snapped me out of it.

Inside this episode:

•  why burnout doesn’t make your brain shut down… it actually speeds it up 
•  the real reason “rest” doesn’t work when you’re exhausted 
•  what your brain actually needs to get out of survival mode 
•  and how one small shift completely changed my ability to connect again 

If you’re tired, overstimulated, and wondering why nothing is helping… this will click. 

WIRED:  https://www.mnmfitnessco.com/wired

This episode is a full-on passion crash out, I hit record because I couldn’t not say this, and I mean every word of it.

I’m talking about the thing so many of you are doing, asking for help, but not actually letting yourself receive it.

Inside this one:

•  why it feels so uncomfortable to be supported (even when you need it) 
•  how hyper-independence keeps you stuck, exhausted, and overwhelmed 
•  the real reason your brain resists help (hint: it’s not about timing) 
•  and what it actually takes to start letting people show up for you 

This is blunt, a little aggressive, and coming straight from lived experience.

If you know you need support but keep finding reasons not to take it…well, you know what to do.