Dopamine Diaries

This one cracked me open a little.

I’m in a season I’ve never been in before… where I’m not chasing more in the way I always have, and honestly, I don’t fully recognize myself here yet.

In this episode, I share:

•  what it’s been like to feel my inner critic get quieter… and how unsettling that actually is 
•  how I used to chase achievement to feel enough, and why that doesn’t drive me the same way anymore 
•  the weird, uncomfortable feeling of contentment 
•  and the daily tension between the version of me that wants to push… and the version of me that just wants to be 

I cried in this one. I laughed in this one. I’m still figuring it out in real time.

But this is what it looks like for me right now.

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This one’s a bit of a rant… but it needed to be said.

After hearing multiple people say they’re afraid of failing, I’m breaking down what’s actually going on underneath that fear, and why it’s keeping you stuck.

Inside this episode:

•  why you don’t need fear to go away before making a decision 
•  how your brain is wired to fixate on worst-case scenarios 
•  the real reason change feels so hard (even when your current patterns suck) 
•  and what it actually looks like to move forward with fear still in the passenger seat 

If you’ve been sitting on a decision because you’re scared it won’t work… this is your nudge.

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This episode started with me painting my nails… and turned into one of the biggest realizations about burnout I’ve had.

I share a season where I felt completely disconnected, from my husband, my energy, and honestly myself, and the unexpected moment that snapped me out of it.

Inside this episode:

•  why burnout doesn’t make your brain shut down… it actually speeds it up 
•  the real reason “rest” doesn’t work when you’re exhausted 
•  what your brain actually needs to get out of survival mode 
•  and how one small shift completely changed my ability to connect again 

If you’re tired, overstimulated, and wondering why nothing is helping… this will click. 

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This episode is a full-on passion crash out, I hit record because I couldn’t not say this, and I mean every word of it.

I’m talking about the thing so many of you are doing, asking for help, but not actually letting yourself receive it.

Inside this one:

•  why it feels so uncomfortable to be supported (even when you need it) 
•  how hyper-independence keeps you stuck, exhausted, and overwhelmed 
•  the real reason your brain resists help (hint: it’s not about timing) 
•  and what it actually takes to start letting people show up for you 

This is blunt, a little aggressive, and coming straight from lived experience.

If you know you need support but keep finding reasons not to take it…well, you know what to do.

WIRED: https://www.mnmfitnessco.com/wired

I almost lost my business… and nothing was actually wrong.

In this episode, I’m talking about how nervous system dysregulation can quietly lead to self-sabotage, especially if you’re a high-performing woman, business owner, or in a high-pressure career.

We get into:

•  how overthinking, comparison, and consuming too much content can pull you out of alignment 
•  why feeling “not enough” can start running your decisions without you realizing it 
•  the difference between business problems and nervous system problems 
•  and how this pattern can make you want to walk away from work you actually love 

If your work suddenly feels heavier than it should… this will explain why.

Two moments of motherhood I’m not proud of… but I’m sharing them anyway.

In this episode, I talk about how easy it is to lose trust in yourself as a mom,  especially when you’re overstimulated, burnt out, and just looking for a break.

We get into:

•  how scrolling can quietly mess with your confidence as a parent 
•  why “taking a break” on your phone doesn’t actually feel like a break 
•  what’s really happening in your nervous system when everything feels like too much 
•  and the honest truth about resentment, ambition, and early motherhood 

I probably overshared, but I have this feeling I'm not the only one.

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This one's got a little bit of everything... a 90s Julia Roberts movie, a birthday PTSD flare, and why your attention span might be the actual problem.

I turned 36 this week, and two days later I found myself watching Erin Brockovich at 7am instead of working. Not because I had free time... because Monday, my actual birthday, hit me with one of the worst flares I've had in a while, and I spent the day searching for relief in my phone instead of feeling it.

So I challenged myself. Two hours, no phone, fully locked into a movie I knew nothing about.

In this one:

• The difference between scrolling for relief and actually finding it
• Why long form anything (movies, YouTube vlogs, whatever) is quietly good for your brain
• The phone mirror exercise I want you to try right now, mid-episode
• A hint at the program I'm revealing this weekend

If you've ever caught yourself scrolling for relief but nothing actually feels satisfying, this one's for you.

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This episode is the version of motherhood nobody posts about online.

I was 6 weeks postpartum, not okay, and willing to pay anything for someone to help me figure out what the hell was happening to me.

So I brought on Dr. Nicole, the person who saw me in that state and didn’t look away.

We talk about:

• being deeply in love with your baby… and also feeling like you’re drowning
• the anxiety that makes everything feel dangerous
• the depression that shows up way later and makes you question everything
• the identity loss no one prepares high-achieving women for
• and how the system checks on your baby… then sends you home like “good luck”

Also:

• how social media quietly made it worse
• why you feel crazy but aren’t
• and what actual support should have looked like the whole time

If you’ve ever thought “I should be happier than this”
or “Why does this feel so much harder than everyone said”,

this episode is yours.

Want support beyond this episode? here’s where to find Nicole + her work:

• The Whole Mom Circle — virtual group with trusted providers + resources ($24/month) 
• PP Growth Tracker — track your progress alongside your baby ($9) 
• Birthing Her — on-demand course on the “birth of the mom” ($39) 
• 4th Trimester Program — 3-month group coaching (sleep, identity, recovery, intimacy, newborn challenges, full postpartum care plan)
• Connect with her on IG

If you're a regular podcast listener, you're probably like, hey, where have you been? Y'all, I've been here, but I've been fighting for my life.

In this rapid fire update episode, I'm getting you up to speed before the podcast gets back to regular episodes in 2026. 

I talk about the season of high stress that tanked my hormones, why I'm on hormone replacement therapy at 36, what happened when I more than doubled my audience in three months, and what it's like to experience your life muted or in black and white overnight.

If you're in a season where gratitude feels out of reach and someone telling you to just be grateful is shit advice.

If you want to know what nervous system work actually looks like when life is kicking your literal ass.

If you're a working mom who hasn't found peace in that yet.

Sometimes the goal isn't to find positivity in the suck. It's to find something else entirely.

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Let’s get real, folks. I say this all the damn time, but you won’t know the freedom of letting your truth out until you just do it.

In this episode, I’m laying it all on the line about the messy, chaotic world of motherhood and the shitstorm I faced for being honest about it. I’m talking about the isolation that comes from feeling like you have to wear a mask and the judgment from other moms that makes you want to scream.

I’ll spill the tea on what happened when I finally stopped pretending everything was fine and started to own my struggles. Spoiler alert: it’s fucking liberating. Motherhood doesn’t have to be this martyrdom game where you’re constantly feeling like a failure. 

If you’ve ever caught yourself thinking, “I should be tougher,” or shoved your feelings down because you’re scared of what others will say, this episode is for you. 

Let’s face it: you deserve to express yourself without being called a victim. Lean into your truth and watch how it transforms you. Your kids deserve a mom who isn’t just surviving but thriving. I wish I had learned this sooner.

So, are you ready to shake things up? Tune in and let’s start dismantling the stigma together!

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