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Self-loathing - Healing childhood trauma from abuse
How to heal the feeling of self-loathing or the thought pattern that’s locked in your mind saying “I’m disgusting” or this part of me is disgusting. I’m going to explain how this originated in your childhood, how it plays out in your life and what you can do to release it.
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So where does this voice come from that says "I'm disgusting"
Disgust is a natural response when you want to expel something toxic from your body. But given that you are a wonderful human being why would you feel that about yourself? Well it begins with at childhood when the abuser hurts you.
Your natural feeling is to see their behaviour as disgusting - something toxic to you. But a thought pattern does not get directed one way. Thought patterns infiltrate every area of your life.
As a child being abused you internalised the phrase “to be disgusting”. Your mind took the thought pattern and extended it to all parts of your life and you’ll find a lot of things revolting or unstomachable. Most noticeably you find yourself disgusting. And as a child being abused it’s a valid dialogue. You must be disgusting to deserve being abused. Your psyche has to justify the horrific actions of the perpetrator- so a logical association gets locked in place as though it’s fact. You must be a terrible bad person ie disgusting and that’s why... it’s all these connections in your subconscious mind as you try to understand the world around you.
Lets explore the complications in adult life when this specific dialogue is left Unhealed. As you get older and work on your life Improving your health or your money or your relationships or Your connectivity to all - you find you can’t get it all right. Money gets improved and then your fitness drops off. Then health is improved but now you’re being mean to loved ones. Your relationships improve but now you’ve stopped tending to your spiritual self. This is so that you have a justifiable reason to feel disgusting. Your subconscious get to continue the thought pattern of berating yourself and feeling disgusting
it also means you feel unattractive to people in general not just sexually, like people don't want to hang out with you. you feel undesirable and again not just in your romantic relationship but also to be hired for jobs.
To clear the thought pattern you really need to target the childhood belief that you are unlovable, undeserving of love, repulsive, unacceptable because you keep getting rejected as you are, unwanted, loathsome,
And replace these thoughts with
I am allowing in love, I am deserving of love, I am loveable, I am wanted,
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How to heal the feeling of self-loathing or the thought pattern that’s locked in your mind saying “I’m disgusting” or this part of me is disgusting. I’m going to explain how this originated in your childhood, how it plays out in your life and what you can do to release it.
Newsletter signup
https://rossanneclay.com/newsletter/
Online learning
https://rossanneclay.com/shop
Contact
Spotify Podcast
https://open.spotify.com/show/3J4ZXhW...
For a support community
https://discord.gg/ZMemVjgA
So where does this voice come from that says "I'm disgusting"
Disgust is a natural response when you want to expel something toxic from your body. But given that you are a wonderful human being why would you feel that about yourself? Well it begins with at childhood when the abuser hurts you.
Your natural feeling is to see their behaviour as disgusting - something toxic to you. But a thought pattern does not get directed one way. Thought patterns infiltrate every area of your life.
As a child being abused you internalised the phrase “to be disgusting”. Your mind took the thought pattern and extended it to all parts of your life and you’ll find a lot of things revolting or unstomachable. Most noticeably you find yourself disgusting. And as a child being abused it’s a valid dialogue. You must be disgusting to deserve being abused. Your psyche has to justify the horrific actions of the perpetrator- so a logical association gets locked in place as though it’s fact. You must be a terrible bad person ie disgusting and that’s why... it’s all these connections in your subconscious mind as you try to understand the world around you.
Lets explore the complications in adult life when this specific dialogue is left Unhealed. As you get older and work on your life Improving your health or your money or your relationships or Your connectivity to all - you find you can’t get it all right. Money gets improved and then your fitness drops off. Then health is improved but now you’re being mean to loved ones. Your relationships improve but now you’ve stopped tending to your spiritual self. This is so that you have a justifiable reason to feel disgusting. Your subconscious get to continue the thought pattern of berating yourself and feeling disgusting
it also means you feel unattractive to people in general not just sexually, like people don't want to hang out with you. you feel undesirable and again not just in your romantic relationship but also to be hired for jobs.
To clear the thought pattern you really need to target the childhood belief that you are unlovable, undeserving of love, repulsive, unacceptable because you keep getting rejected as you are, unwanted, loathsome,
And replace these thoughts with
I am allowing in love, I am deserving of love, I am loveable, I am wanted,