In many subtle ways I was very strongly attached to my beliefs. To adopt a new way of thinking became an ordeal several times. In this ongoing process I had to fight a lot with my monstrous ego. I had to pacify my wandering mind and teach myself the innate qualities of my inner consciousness. These beautiful innate qualities, which had gotten covered by the  acquired vices of Ego, anger, jealousy and so on. The struggle to overcome the vices, and soothing the Ego had been an exceptional experience. Several failures tried weakening my strength, but one little triumph held my hand tightly to lead the way. I got numerous unanswered queries answered. I opened my wings to fly !