Welcome to Selfed, the podcast where I process therapy sessions for you own self reflection haha. Today I look at my relationship to rejection and how I avoid the experience in a variety of ways. Whatever the opposite feelings are that come with rejection are feelings I ONLY feel when I have a shared sexual exchange with someone. I learn from processing here that what I need isn't more sex, but what I need is that feeling between an initiation of intimacy and the receipt of rejection or acceptance. Whatever it is, I need to just BE there with it, not avoid it.