If you’re afraid there’s something “dark,” “evil,” or fundamentally wrong inside you… this episode will change everything.
In this deep dive on childhood trauma, the Golden Shadow, and IFS protectors, I’ll show you why those scary inner voices or impulses aren’t signs that something is wrong with you—they’re actually psychological protectors guarding your brightest, most authentic self.

Here’s what we’re getting into:

When people with developmental or childhood trauma start doing shadow work, they’re often afraid they’re going to uncover something monstrous—some “dark part” that proves they’re broken.
But here’s the truth: 99% of the time, the thing you’re afraid of is actually your Golden Shadow.
Your creativity.
Your intuition.
Your sensitivity.
Your joy.
Your true personality.
All the pieces that were too bright and too beautiful to feel safe in your childhood environment.

READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

This episode we are diving into the Collective Sexual Shadow — the unconscious web of repression, guilt, and control that shapes how we experience sexuality on a cultural level. We’re exploring how patriarchy, colonialism, and religious conditioning gave rise to the Madonna–Whore Complex, splitting the feminine into “holy” and “sinful” and leaving generations disconnected from their bodies and erotic truth.
We’ll talk about how this split still plays out in our modern relationships, gender dynamics, and even our spiritual beliefs — and how we can begin to integrate what’s been exiled. I’ll also share what my travels through the American South revealed about witnessing collective suffering, embodiment, and the deeper roots of shadow work.
✨ In this episode, we explore:
What the collective sexual shadow actually is
How patriarchy and colonialism shaped our relationship with sex and power
The deeper meaning of the Madonna–Whore Complex
Healing the split between the light and dark feminine
Reclaiming erotic wholeness through shadow work

READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

Do you ever sabotage what you actually want — love, success, attention, pleasure — because being seen feels terrifying?
This episode dives into the fear of being seen, the shadow behind self-sabotage, and how it’s wired into your nervous system, sexuality, and self-expression.
You’ll learn how fear of visibility connects to:

✦ Fear of success, failure, and rejection

✦ The throat chakra and difficulty speaking your truth

✦ Performative vs authentic sexuality

✦ Nervous system dysregulation and early trauma

✦ Perfectionism, shame, and “too much / not enough” energy

This conversation is for the deep feelers, the neurodivergent, the spiritually-curious, the ones who know they’re meant for more but still shrink when the spotlight hits.
I share my own story — from childhood trauma to becoming a teacher of shadow integration — and practical tools to expand your capacity for visibility, intimacy, and pleasure.

🌹 Want to go deeper?
If this hits you in the gut, it’s because this wound is archetypal.In REBORN, my 8-module on-demand journey into the erotic shadow, you’ll explore how fear, shame, and repression block your life-force — and learn to alchemize them into power, pleasure, and expression.
✨ Explore REBORN → https://www.jaclynproper.com/reborn

🕯 Chapters
Intro: The fear of being seen
My personal story with visibility trauma

The ego, persona & shadow

Throat chakra + expression

Visibility in intimacy & sex

How fear of success hides inside your nervous system

Practices to expand your capacity to be seen

Integration + REBORN invitation

⚡ Keywords / Hashtags 
fear of being seen, shadow work, sexual shadow, erotic shadow work, Jungian psychology, nervous system healing, trauma and sexuality, chakra healing, self-expression, fear of success, inner child healing#ShadowWork #FearOfBeingSeen #SexualShadow #ThroatChakra #TraumaHealing

READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

Are you in the void — that confusing, restless space where the old you has dissolved but the new version hasn’t fully formed yet? 🌑✨
In this video, I share my personal experience with the liminal space of shadow work, also known in Jungian psychology and alchemy as the negredo — the stage of psychological death and rebirth. We’ll talk about what it feels like to be in the void, why it shows up during spiritual growth, and how to navigate it without forcing premature action.
You’ll learn:
What the void/liminal space actually is in shadow work
How dreams (like death imagery, jail, or grief themes) signal ego death and identity shifts
Why trying to “manifest your way out” can keep you stuck longer
Practical ways to navigate uncertainty, integrate change, and honor this sacred pause
How to reframe the void as fertile ground for your next evolution
If you’ve been feeling flat, uninspired, or questioning your direction, you might be in the void right now. This isn’t a breakdown — it’s a sacred integration phase that can transform you when you surrender instead of resist.
💡 Whether you’re on a shadow work journey, exploring Jungian psychology, or just trying to make sense of an identity shift, this video will give you clarity and tools to sit with the unknown.

🎤See me at SexDownSouth (Sept 4-6), use code JACLYN20 for 20% off→ [https://www.sexdownsouth.com/events/sdscon25]

READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

This is the story I haven’t fully told until now. In this episode, I share the truth about my spiritual awakening — how it looked like psychosis, triggered a deep identity crisis, and led me into a full-blown shadow descent. From kundalini surges and dark feminine archetypes to trauma flashbacks, psychic downloads, and a trip to the psych ward… this was my initiation.

We talk spiritual emergency, mental health, shame, martyr complexes, plant consciousness, feminine mysticism, and reclaiming your sexual and intuitive gifts after a complete ego death. If you’ve ever felt “crazy” during your awakening — this one's for you. You’re not alone, and you’re not broken.

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#SpiritualAwakening #Kundalini #ShadowWork #DarkFeminine #SpiritualPsychosis #DivineFeminine #MentalHealthAwakening #JungianPsychology #SexualHealing

• 📘 Download your FREE Sexual Shadow Work Guide: https://www.jaclynproper.com/sexual-shadow-workbook
• 🤝 Book a FREE One-on-One Alignment Session: jaclynproper.com/work-with-me

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• 🌐 Website: www.jaclynproper.com
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If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit. Your support helps reach more people and spread the message of conscious exploration and self-awareness.

About Jaclyn Proper:

Jaclyn is a Jungian Depth Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

Thank you for listening!

So… what actually happens when you commit to shadow work for real?

In this episode, I reflect on the last 5 years of doing deep unconscious work — the kind that changes your entire life, nervous system, sexuality, body, intuition, relationships… all of it. This isn’t some fluffy “just journal and light a candle” version of healing. This is what it actually looks like to unravel your trauma, identity, addictions, and ego defenses and rebuild from the soul up.

I talk about how becoming a dominatrix unexpectedly saved my life, what a Kundalini awakening did to my brain, and why shadow work gave me better orgasms. I also share how I finally stopped self-abandoning, started trusting myself, and built a life I couldn’t even imagine five years ago.

If you’re in the thick of it, this episode is for you. There is another side — and it’s better than your ego can dream up.

✨ Mentioned in this episode:
🔮 Free workshop: https://www.jaclynproper.com/third-eye-kink
📩 Email me your reflections at: [email protected]

tags: shadow work, Jungian coaching, spiritual awakening, sexual shadow work, trauma healing, nervous system healing, parts work, somatic healing, inner child healing, authentic self, transformation journey, spiritual psychosis, kink and shadow, third eye awakening

READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

In this episode, we explore the father archetype and father complex—and how your relationship to this energy impacts your confidence, ambition, leadership, and sense of inner authority.

Whether you had an absent father, a tyrannical father, or a passive one, these early dynamics shape how you relate to power, responsibility, and success as an adult. We dive into the psychological and somatic roots of the father wound, what it means to build an inner father, and how shadow work can help you heal and reclaim your personal sovereignty.

I also share how conscious BDSM dynamics can become a powerful, reparative space to rewire your relationship to structure, protection, and empowered masculine energy.

✅ You’ll learn:
– What the father archetype actually represents (it’s not about gender)
– How a wounded or absent father impacts your adult identity
– The difference between tyrannical, absent, and collapsed father energy
– How to rebuild your inner father through shadow work & nervous system healing
– Why queer and nontraditional parenting still operate within these archetypes
– How BDSM and D/s dynamics can be used to consciously reparent and rewire your psyche

🌀 Whether you're exploring masculine energy, reparenting yourself, or deepening your shadow work practice—this episode gives you a powerful map.

#fatherwound #shadowwork #innerchildhealing #jungianpsychology #archetypes #fathercomplex #masculinearchetypes #somatichealing #reparenting #bdsmhealing #subconsciousmind #traumarecovery

READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

Why does growing up feel like punishment? Why do creatives, rebels, and free spirits often sabotage stability or crave constant freedom? In this episode, we explore the eternal child archetype (also known as the puer/puella complex in Jungian psychology) and how it shows up in modern life, sexuality, and your relationship with power.

Whether you're queer, kinky, neurodivergent, or just deeply allergic to conformity, this one's for you.

🔍 We’ll cover:

• The shadow side of freedom & magical thinking
• Why adulting feels triggering to the nervous system
• Reparenting the inner child with discipline + devotion
• How the eternal child archetype can sabotage intimacy, goals, and growth
• Kink & BDSM as tools to heal the inner child (and avoid unconscious chaos)

👄 If you’ve ever identified with being the fun one, the rebel, the muse, the lost boy/girl/enby—or if you’ve been stuck manifesting but not moving—this episode is your mirror.

🔔 Like, subscribe, and share if this hit home. It helps this channel reach more unconventional souls doing the deep work.

#eternalchild #jungianpsychology #shadowwork #spiritualshadowwork #adultingishard #innerchildhealing #puercomplex #kinkandhealing #queershadowwork #disciplinevsfreedom #neurodivergenthealing

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READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

Ever feel terrified of being wrong, looking stupid, or not knowing enough? You’re not alone. This shadow is sneaky AF and can show up as perfectionism, overachievement, avoidance, shutdown, or even aggression—especially in sex, relationships, and creative expression. 

In this episode, I unpack:

What the incompetence shadow really is and where it comes from (especially if you were a gifted kid, overparented, or had trauma)
How this fear secretly runs the show in your adult life, career, and bedroom
How this shadow shows up in kink, shutdowns during intimacy, fawning, and know-it-all energy
The impact of trauma and loss of autonomy on self-trust and shame
Why vulnerability is the key to integration
⚡ Stay till the end for a guided active imagination visualization to help you integrate this shadow and reclaim your creativity, curiosity, and power.

Let’s make peace with the parts of ourselves we were taught to exile. Because when you reclaim the shadow of incompetence, you reclaim your ability to be seen, loved, and fully alive.

#jungianpsychology #shadowwork #sexualshadow #innerchild #incompetence #traumarecovery #neurodivergent #spiritualgrowth #jungiancoach #innerwork #depthpsychology #fawning #intimacyissues #reclaimyourpower #activeimagination

READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.

Unlock the truth about your relationship with your mother—and how it’s still shaping your nervous system, attachment style, and romantic life. In this episode, we explore the Mother Archetype through a Jungian lens, including the wounded forms like the Devouring Mother and Possessive Mother, and how these patterns affect intimacy, emotional safety, and your inner world.

I break down:

How your nervous system is wired in utero by your mother’s regulation (or dysregulation)
Why epigenetic trauma from your maternal lineage may still be running the show
How a mother wound can lead to avoidance, people-pleasing, or relationship sabotage
The difference between the Earth Mother and the Divine Mother archetype
A powerful guided active imagination to meet and transform your inner mother
This episode ends with an active imagination visualization to help you connect to the Divine Mother within, rewire your relationship to feminine presence, and reclaim self-nurturance, sovereignty, and emotional resilience.

READY TO EXPLORE YOUR SHADOW? 🖤

⭐️ FREE Erotic Shadow Workbook
✨ 20 page eBook: 8 Layers of Sexual Shadow
🔥 Dive Deeper: Experience REBORN, my guided erotic shadow journey
💎 Transform: Apply for 1:1 coaching to awaken your authentic power + live a life that turns you on
🌒 Support the Pod: Check out my Etsy Store! Every piece is designed by me: shadow-themed art & apparel

Connect with Me:

• 📸 Instagram: @jaclynproper
• 📱 TikTok: @jaclynproper
• 📺 YouTube: @jaclynproper

If you enjoyed this episode, please consider leaving a review and sharing it with someone who might benefit.

About Jaclyn Proper: Jaclyn is a Jungian Coach dedicated to helping you explore the depths of your psyche, embrace your true desires, and transform your life through conscious exploration and self-awareness. Join her as she breaks down barriers and opens up conversations about sexuality, creativity, and the journey towards wholeness.