The last ¨job opportunity¨ in IT, for a company that makes itself publicity of supporting women in tech, was no opportunity for me, but a let´s say opportunity to offend and discriminate for different important persons of the company, who are still there. In my last interaction, where in a group meeting, specially made to discuss operational issues and procedures, I have asked if I can communicate in Romanian with the Romanian clients, knowing that this was already an issue in many companies, to the level of not having the permission to sign in Romanian an email, even if the signature had all European languages in it, just skip this one. My question disturbed me to the level that I was called stupid in front of everyone, and fired after, with the reason of disturbing. The manager who insulted and fired me never launched the formation process, just put me to work directly, after a few days of no coordinated formation, based on other colleagues' teachings, while working...My guess is that the manager had no idea how to launch a training procedure, and I could have shown him how to do it, as I had already showed others managers how to handle the procedure. There is nothing easier, clearer than what a manager has to do, all written down, step by step, in any data knowledge and management system.

So, here I am, I have managed to jump into another year dehumanized and with no perspectives, yet I´m alive, despite the declared desire of some Mango shitty colleague that asked me if I´m going to jump out of the window one day, just for the love of the conversation, and he was protected afterwards...Working for this fashion company was as undesirable as possible, from many points of view.

In present, each day I´m searching and applying to Mediation, Customer Service and Troubleshooting jobs, or to any job that is related to my studies, only that those are difficult to access, due to the local exclusion layers, and also I check for jobs as a cook, as I have a diploma, experience in it, and have spend the last months cooking for a group of people. If someone offers me a job, I don´t refuse it, I´m used to work from construction, carpentry, cleaning, and agriculture. The worst thing that can happen to me is already happening, and that´s not being coordinated in a continuous activity.

Besides the extra energy issues, health matters derived from the lack of work opportunities, losing autonomy, are tormenting, as it means constant fear that basic needs, like paying the bills, are not possible anymore. The idea of having a family, or that a woman has the right to dream of having a child, is totally shot down by the lack of work stability. From where I am standing, my whole interest and effort go to sustain the society, and my skills show an immense will to integrate into any European system and department. Why is there no inclusive planning for people like me?