Halloween
Well, they said this one’s serious
And not to go outside and smoke
I figured my mother wasn’t delirious
So I took note
Hunkered alone in the basement
Watching Season 5 of Mad Men
I called to make sure you were aware
And to feel like you still were a friend
You sounded agitated
And staticky on the line
I said, you didn’t let that stupid bastard
Talk you into giving him a ride
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There’s always tomorrow
Until there isn’t
There’s always the light of lightening in a storm
There’s always tomorrow until there isn’t
I will love you
Forevermore
Now the storm touched down
Knocked the crown off Kings Point
Down in Ozone you could drown
In Whitestone I ashed my joint
If I’d known we’d split
I’d have never introduced you to my mom
If she knew you revenge cheated
She might not care if you were harmed
Yet it gave me a twinge
Remembering your Winehouse eyelids
Glittering in the streetlight that night
We joked about having kids
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I hear the rain hard while
Pacing from the boiler to my couch
Even after the texts with the threats
It’s you I still can’t live without
So I raced up the stairs, put on my Yankees hat
And grabbed the keys
Planning to find you
To explain what state of emergency means
But my father grabbed me with half-my-shoulder
Out the door
And was already pulling me back inside before
I even answered when he asked, “what the hell are you leaving for?”
Chorus
Well, two days later
And it was Halloween
I saw some little girl walking around a fallen tree
And she was dressed like a Disney queen
I didn’t feel nothing
While walking through our little shattered town
I couldn’t lose this shining vision of you
Wearing a white wedding gown
It was all my goddamn fault
I grew up getting called ugly
I couldn’t stop myself from wanting someone else
Even when I knew you loved me
I heard he wanted cigarettes
The kindergarten teacher called him dim
The priest said nothing about his sins
Nobody wanted to blame him
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Nowadays I can't sleep
These ghosts in my head
Project in black-and-white
Above my childhood bed
I’ve never really stopped taking
That first walk right after the storm
I’ve never wanted to mend the
Threads of our life together that were torn
They say I make you a saint
Because I block your flaws out of my mind
They tell me it’s only natural for people to heal
When they’ve had enough time
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