ShraOne Table Talk

I want to know if she's really getting back again. I somehow am getting this feeling that she's happy. If it is true, I'm the first one to genuinely feel good. Everyone in her life might be seeking something or the other to keep them happy. I think I'm the only person to not ask her anything except her. I promised her us if she's ready. No one can her love Kanna more than me. Dear God, next time when you write about any couple who started their life journey together, make sure they meet, fight, eat enough and in the end kicking out the toxicity let them be together happily till the end, fighting all the odds. And make sure each one of the couple realise nothing else matters than their couple. Literally, nothing else !!! By the time couples realise the point, everything will already derailed. Dear God, bless Kanna with a happy life and a good partner who makes her forget me. Let her have a happy life of a little butterfly whose tender childhood knows only to look cutely and fly high.

Why do we always build walls among ourselves? Different caste? Different religion? Answer me dear listener, can't you live a normal life with a partner from another caste/religion/race? Will your life be affected? If affected by people's opinions, think once, does it really matter ? Which is more important, your family or people's opinion? I prefer my family. I'll go to any extent for my family. I am ready to take her away from her home. But she isn't ready. Her parents don't really deserve her. She's an angel. Praying Mahadev to save her from all the dangers she's going to face. Ending with heavy heart

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I turned more vulnerable, I just realised. It's raining heavily and thunders are just hitting hard. I used to enjoy the rains usually. It used to be my favourite part of any year. But this time, thunders are brining a bad vibe in my gut. I am feeling insecure inside. I want to hold her hand again and sleep. I know I can't, it's life. Let me die alone here in my space, killing all the good vibes I had, good habits I had, sarcasm I used to have, almost everything. I never knew loving someone so much and they don't really understand the gravity of our side and go for their life, there will be so much of downfall. The best parts of my life have turned into anxious and insecure moments.

I realised that everything she does has become an addiction to me. Every work I do regularly is somehow mentally attached to her. The only emotion that raises my spirits is me calling her Kanna. I don't know why she is forcibly trying to detach me from her. It's sad, really sad for me.

I decided to get back the moment she started speaking to me like normal. It's giving me back those vibes that used to energize me to do anything. Music has the energy to restart anything.

I found that am in Severe Depression after I went into a formal test online. I described a few symptoms of what am suffering from. I forgot the rest.

It gives me immense warmth sharing what happened. I really don't have anyone who is really empathetic towards my current state of mind. So, I chose a voice Journal myself as Anchor.

I don't know. I just want to Journal my feelings. If anyone is here pls be away. If you listen, pls don't discuss it with me

This series covers many topics in continuos episodes. I have chosen a list of subjects and few people to interview. Enjoy listening!