For some time, I wasn’t scrolling Instagram.
Not because I was trying to prove anything to myself, but because life had its own rhythm. The days were full. The hospital was demanding. The mind was occupied with real people, real illnesses, real responsibilities.
But recently, I started scrolling again.
Not obsessively. Not in a way that feels like an addiction.
Just enough for it to quietly become a part of my day again.
And something interesting began to happen.
I started seeing people my age.
Twenty-three.
Twenty-four.
And they were doing incredible things.
Winning Olympic medals.
Receiving global awards for their work in film and art.
Standing in front of parliaments, changing laws that could save lives.
Starting movements that reshape entire communities.
People my age were doing things that once sounded like fairytales.
And then there was me.
Standing in a general medicine ward.
An intern in a white coat.
Listening to patients’ symptoms, writing notes, checking vitals, trying to keep up with everything that medicine demands.
Objectively, there is nothing wrong with that.
In fact, this is exactly where I once dreamed of being.
Years ago, the hospital itself was the fairytale.
The long nights studying.
The anxiety before exams.
The moment I first stepped into medical training.
All of that was part of a dream I once chased relentlessly.
And yet… something strange happens when you begin comparing timelines.
Suddenly, the dream you are living begins to feel… ordinary.
You start asking questions you never intended to ask.
What am I even doing?