So You Exist

Lets talk a little about the idea of infinite experiences.

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I started this channel, to release my thoughts and feelings on heavy topics. Topics that usually lead people into perhaps having an existential crisis.

Which leads to one of the big ones. The painful realization that everything is temporary.

All the sweet, delicate beautiful moments of your life, come and go, and you’re left with nothing more than a distant memory.

It’s something we REALLY don’t want to think about, because the thought of it is too painful to comprehend, so we just keep busy and ignore it.

If you ever do have a second to think deep enough about it, the thought of it can be so over powering that you’re barely able to function.

All we can really do, is try our best to enjoy every moment as it comes, even if you’re painfully aware of its temporary nature.

I guess the only thing we can take comfort in, is that we ALL go through it, so with that, we can come together, and share our experiences, and be there for each other. Even if that pain never fully goes away, we can at least help each other to the best of our abilities.

Have you ever felt so alone, that it crippled you? The human experience can be so overwhelming, and i sympathize with anyone going through this.

Here is something i wrote, called Unbearable.

(Unbearable)

Have you ever felt so alone? So alone you can’t breathe? Have you ever had a pain in your chest and heart, that goes so deep, you can’t imagine how it will ever go away.

You dream of the day this pain will go away.

In this moment, it hurts so much, you wish and pray for non existence.

You never imagined a human being was capable of feeling this much pain. And it’s not a pain like cutting your finger, or breaking your arm. It’s a kind of pain that’s so deep it seems to have no end to it.

I miss the days where i could take a deep breath and feel ok. I can hardly breathe anymore. Every time i try, it hurts too much to breathe, it hurts too much to do anything.

I wish so much i could feel so connected to someone, that this feeling of being alone goes away.

I wish i could hold someone so close to me, that we feel as if we’re one.

It feels like i’m floating through infinite space, alone, just me in an infinite void that never ends.

How i dream of a day where i’m so close to someone, that this feeling goes away.

As i write this, i just can’t believe a human is capable of feeling something this intense. It’s so over powering, that i can’t breathe, and the pain in my heart and chest is unbearable.

The human experience can be filled with so much joy and beauty, i know this. What i wonder is, will i ever have enough of this joy and beauty, to make the pain go away. Cause it hurts so bad, its hurts to breathe, it hurts to walk, it hurts to exist. It’s unbearable.

You ever heard of an existential crisis? Apparently when people sit down for a few seconds to ponder their life/existence, things can get a little overwhelming.

We might not ever be able to make sense of any of it, but we can at least talk about it. It's better than nothing.

We might all have different thoughts on reality and existence, but as long as we are nice to one another, and treat each other with respect, we can talk, laugh, share our different ideas, and just try and connect to the best of our ability, so that way we at least don't feel as alone in this wild and crazy ride.

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This podcast can also be found in video format on YouTube at, https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3zVm0Sxl6YXZzUcYFYOsVQ/videos

If you have any topics you’d like to hear covered, or want to reach me, email me at [email protected]