some deep shit - voicing the unspeakable

How many times have you given up on something? I have… countless times. The most recent was when I gave up on this podcast…Or almost. 

In episode 1, I share how the idea for this podcast came about and what the process of getting it off the ground was like. If you haven't heard it yet, I suggest you do so first and then come back here—it'll make a lot more sense, I promise. Now, if you've listened until the very last second, including the post-credits part, you know that it took many months—more than a year, to be exact—to go from starting to publishing the first episode. But what I didn’t share in detail back then was the reason for this delay, and what it has to do with my habit of giving up.

If you can relate to this or are just curious for some gossip, stay with me, because this conversation is about to get deep.

Imagine the first scene of Gossip Girl. Serena on the train, "Young Folks" playing, that look so expressionless it could fit into any situation. Now replace Serena with a guy with curly hair and round glasses, New York with Rotterdam, "Young Folks" with "Run Away With Me," and an empty look with one of "what the hell am I doing with my life?" Well, that was me a few months ago when the idea for this podcast started to take shape.

But I wasn't sad, mad, frustrated. On one hand, I felt incredibly grateful to be where I am today. On the other hand, it felt like something was missing. Like a beautiful puzzle where the last piece is somewhere out there, waiting to be found. Beautiful but incomplete.

The other times I felt this way, I simply ignored it and carried on with life. But this time, my curiosity was bigger than my fear. I decided to embrace the uncertainty and investigate. I had a clue as to where this missing piece might be. I just needed to try.

If you've ever felt the same way, welcome, this episode is for you. For us. For our eagerness to find the missing piece.

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