Soulcruzer

In this episode, I explore the idea of living life as an RPG (Role-Playing Game)—what it means to own your narrative, choose your playstyle, define your character arc, and fully embrace the journey of discovery, challenge, and transformation. Inspired by my love of RPGs like Dungeons & Dragons and Gamma World, I break down a Life RPG Framework that helps map out our personal adventures.

Soulcruzer Podcast: Show Notes 

Episode Overview 

Welcome to another episode of Soulcruzer. Today, I’m recording from an unlikely spot—the Premier Inn at Heathrow Airport. Finding a quiet place has been a challenge, with fans humming in the room and planes roaring overhead every few minutes. But that’s just part of the journey. 

In this episode, I dive into some thoughts on Liber Null & Psychonaut by Peter J. Carroll, a foundational text in chaos magic. I finished listening to it during my travels—six hours in the car, a couple more on the train—and it sparked some reflections I wanted to share with you.  

Main Themes & Takeaways 

Reality is Malleable – What if reality isn’t fixed but something that can be shaped? What if belief isn’t something you have but something you use? Liber Null presents magic as a kind of hands-on science for hacking consciousness, testing reality, and bending the world to your will. 

Chaos Magic as a Radical Shift – Written in the late 1970s, Liber Null challenged traditional esoteric systems by stripping magic down to its core principles. It resonated with punk, cyberpunk, and avant-garde thinkers because it rejected gatekeeping and hierarchical structures. No need for orders, initiations, or rigid traditions—just experimentation and direct experience. 

The Modern Relevance of Chaos Magic – We live in a world where reality is already being shaped—by algorithms, social media, political strategies, and advertising. Big Tech and ad agencies aren’t wearing robes, but they’re using the same principles of symbolic manipulation to shape what we see, feel, and believe. The question is: Are you actively shaping your own reality, or is someone else doing it for you? 

Belief as a Tool, Not a Truth – One of the core insights of Liber Null is that beliefs are fluid. They can be adopted, tested, and discarded as needed. In the same way a hacker rewrites code, a chaos magician rewires their own mind.  

Connecting This to My Work: Change Magick 

Liber Null aligns with a larger framework I’ve been developing—Change Magick. It combines: 

• Chaos Magic: The art of hacking reality through fluid beliefs and direct experience.
• NLP (Neuro-Linguistic Programming): Techniques for reprogramming the mind.
• Jungian Psychology: Archetypes, shadow work, active imagination, and synchronicity.
• Postmodern Philosophy: The idea that reality is constructed and can be deconstructed.

 
Join the Conversation
 

• Have you read Liber Null & Psychonaut? What did you take away from it?
• Do you practice chaos magic, or are you curious about it?
• Are there any books, practices, or insights you’ve found useful in your own journey?

Drop your thoughts in the comments or reach out—I’d love to hear what reson
 

I'm thrilled to bring back the Musical Journey Show! This is a nostalgic nod to my past, harking back to the days when I hosted on Radio Warwickshire. It's been years since I've been down this path, but there’s something about 2025 that feels like the perfect moment for its revival. "Because you've gotta have goals" after all, and returning to the rhythm of this show is definitely one of mine.

Episode Summary:
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Episode Overview
 
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The Mirror of Echoes is a mystery play exploring the interplay between language, emotion, and thought. Four seekers, each with a unique perspective, participate in a ritual to summon the entity Logoi. The ritual unfolds in three acts, each focusing on a different aspect of this interplay: language's limitations and power, the complexities of pure feeling, and the ultimate merging of self and other. The audience actively participates, becoming integral to the ritual's outcome, which is not a resolution but a paradoxical confrontation with the nature of being. The play ultimately questions whether we control language or if language controls us.

a late night epiphany.