Speak. by Kaya Coleman

this episode is about friendship, forgiveness, and energy protection. a few lessons i’ve unlearned and re-learned. a reminder to forgive, but to never water dead things.

this episode is dedicated to processing death, but also appreciating life. i realized that’s the only thing that makes death understandable. the value of life lies in recognizing its importance. its fragility. i used to think this was it, but im starting to realize that life doesn’t end here. it’s hard to conceptualize these things but i think every humans desire to know more and pray to at outward source of energy none of us have actually ever seen is enough to prove that we are at least connected to something bigger. think about it. even atheists base their beliefs off of their inability to understand or believe in this common greater being. so at the base of their identity, they are still centering themselves around a God they claim they don’t believe in. I found myself here a couple times. losing sight of what’s real. I’m obviously still finding where I belong. alignment is gradual. you don’t inherit the kingdom over night. thinking about the immensity of the beyond fucks me up every time. but my desire to know more helps to keep me grounded and hopefully it helps you too.

ego death is the moment when we recognize where our egos have lied to us in order to preserve our self identity and self esteem. it’s a painful experience. but the beauty that results is well worth the struggle. this episode was therapy for me. s/o to Evo for guiding and lending her gift of healing to us all. i am beyond thankful for you 🤍

To vote or not to vote? This episode explores my current views on the election process, the 2020 race, and my goals for the future of Black America and this ‘democracy’.

what started off as a conversation dedicated to #EndSARS and political unrest, transformed into a more passionate expression of our need for black liberation through radical change globally. everyday we take our blue pills and choose to remain complicit within the same system that’s killing us. i can only imagine what life could be if we collectively chose the red for once. 🧿

insecurity is an unprocessed trauma, usually rooted in fear of rejection, that clouds our understanding of self-worth and self-love, ultimately leading to our inability to fully blossom. there are so many dangers of internalized insecurity and it can damage our relationship with ourselves and with the world around us. this episode takes a deep dive into where insecurities stem from and how we can actively work to heal from our own.

this started off as a conversation discussing the term “high maintenance”, and ultimately gave rise to an exploration of gender dynamics, trauma, support and generational healing. so many of our experiences were birthed from unprocessed trauma, and this episode looks to unpack the potentially negative duality of words, systems and spaces that we exist in. also, huge s/o to my mentee, Jahnay Bryan, for allowing me to join her platform, The Narrative with Nay, and create the space for this conversation. I’m so inspired by your light! 🧿

“One ever feels his two-ness – an American, a Negro; two souls, two thoughts, two unreconciled strivings; two warring ideals in one dark body, whose dogged strength alone keeps it from being torn asunder.” being black in america is more than exhausting. we live in a constant state of fear. running from what we could be so much so that we never get to exist within all that we are. in a world determined to clip our wings, where do we go from here?

a group of some of my best girlfriends and I sit down and discuss our experiences as dark skin women in today’s society. this conversation is extremely raw, and there is such a beautiful flow of transparency and wisdom that we can all learn from and relate to. not only do we discuss colorism in terms of dating, celebrities, and the media, but we discuss the full spectrum that exists within the intersectionality of colorism. all of the isms. colorism, shadeism, texturism, sexism, racism. everything that has and continues to cloud our experiences as black women. 🧿

whew. words can't really describe this year. but, we attempt to in this episode. join my special guest and i, as we engage in an open dialogue surrounding the mental and social effects of the historic year 2020.