Speak Now Or, Forever Hold Your Peace

In the final episode of Season 1

Like I said, 2021 has been a year filled with learning experiences and growing pains. To win and lose. Landing in a hospital, realizing that my manhood was killed from an early age and trying to make up for those mistakes. The lack of not having my father around affected me greatly into who I am now. So, maybe the child in me had to die so that a new man could arrive. I am half the man I want to be, but I'm getting there. Cindrella will come but not right now. 

It's time to focus on me, build myself back better. That is what God wanted for my life. 

In this episode, I talk about recent loss we suffered as a unit. Also, how that has made me reflect on myself and my own mental health. If you or someone you know is going through a mental health crisis. Call 1-800-273-8255.

Decided to waste time on her at 3AM

I arrived in Colorado a year ago. Little did I know that I would become. Married, separated within 6 months. I was in a toxic marriage and there were all kinds of abuse that I needed to get away from. As well as a 17-year-old kid who did not listen to his mother or me. Taking advantage of the rules and showing no respect. I couldn't take it no more so I left.

2021 has been a wild year. I have learned so much about myself as a man, soldier, ex-husband and ex-stepfather. Now it's time to put the lessons I have learned into action!

I was going to drop into this woman’s DM on Instagram. Liked a couple of her photos. I mean she is gorgeous. I’m guessing 5’5 voluptuous, curvy. I can tell she got curves. Latina, I’m like ooh! I must shoot my shot. As I’m writing the message. I stopped, thought about it. Was like; “Nah king!” You don’t want to be one of those dudes saying. I’ll catch a grenade for you. And end up in her group chats with her girlfriends clowning you!

What makes you different from any other dude? She’s probably seen that same version of you 100 different times and doesn’t want to deal with it again. Stop being a SIMP! Be a KING! A woman is going to want you to know her for everything! Family, kids, education, money etc. Same time you must know yourself and ask yourself? Can you handle that?

Fellas, we HAVE to RECLAIM OUR THRONE! Watching the abuse of Dre Hughes on social media really triggered me. No one should get abused like that man or woman on FB live. Same time though you should never let a woman take away your pride and your manhood. Never lower yourself and allow yourself to be used for your own degradation. Also, the difference between Lust and Love and the human consequences of those words.

It seems like I am preaching. Maybe I am! Honestly, I got up this morning with no intention to record. Then something told me. Go record an episode on what I have been learning and living through with God. Yes, I have fallen short, disobeyed God, lived by own rules. But if he is able to use me to get to others through this podcast. Be a vessel for his word, then that's what I'll do!

Simply put, I only talk about how important it is to submit to God and obey him. How we must follow Christ example to live right and faith of a mustard seed. I did not take notes, but I highlighted very important scriptures and lessons that we needed to hear. I hope that you enjoy!

Time to get a little more loose on the mic!  I question if it is okay for a man to cheat? Cause 21 Savage thinks so! Also, I get a little personal about my marriage. It is kind of similar to Brittany Renner and PJ Washington. The predatory nature of women and how both sides have consequences to pay cause of their actions.

This brief 30 minute episode. I preach about Accountability. How my upbringing led to my views on accountability. Also, I talk about the accountability to things that went wrong in my marriage. Yes, I did things wrong. But, do not point the finger at me when there's 4 more pointing back at you! When someone cannot hold themselves accountable for what they've done. They're not and adult, they're childish!