This week I spiraled hard to a FinDom, clouding my judgement and blurring the line between pleasure and abuse. Finally I caught myself and stepped back.

In this episode, I share three posts that unknowingly documented my descent and recovery:

• “Just a hole for my fuckbuddy” — the sexual high

• “Wrapping up No Nut November” — the moment I lost ground

• “A letter to my younger self” — the moment I could see clearly again

If you’ve ever spiraled, I hope this honest reflection helps you feel less alone and reminds you to take care of yourself too.