I know life can be stressful at time and it not eady doing the day-to-day things of life. At times we feel like the world is going to fall on us. I know I being there. However, 2 Corintians 4:16 say; "So we do not lose heart. Thoguht our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day."
This mean everyday is a new day there is hope.
James 5:16 say; "to confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed."
If you harming yourself in anyway it not to late to stop. Depression may be very real but doesn't have to be the end of your story. You have the power and God give you the authority to overcome.