Our false self, our ego cannot love, in truth the ego does not exist at all, because it is a construct of our wounds, pain, conditioning, survival strategies, etc. In the ego, in our personality, we are never able to love truly, we drag and pull on the other, we need them, we manipulate, we control, we protect ourselves at the slightest touch of an old wound, withdraw like a shot animal, fight and do everything to stay safe in our familiar patterns. All this is NOT love. We use our fellow human beings to maintain our false personality, constantly, daily, almost always, often very subtly. Feeling this can be a shock and at the same time a liberation. Ask yourself, how often are you truly in the now, present and free from your Identity...that are the only moments, where you can actually say..."I do love". How many relationships are based on survival, regulation and Not love? True love never goes out of the ego, true love flows when the ego leaves the stage, when we free ourselves from our own prisons and remove our armour. 

The truth does not come from the body, it does not come from the emotions, thoughts, triggers, pain, etc., the truth comes from our consciousness, from our essence, from our higher self. The body is denser, slower, it stores the past, in it sits the old identity. When we begin to really realise, and not only mentally, but at the cellular level, that we can guide the body with our consciousness and it then follows, then we have the strongest healing energy available that exists. So we never split off the body, we bring the consciousness into it and completely incarnate in it. We lead the body with awareness and guide it into abundance and health with our consciousness. We don´t let the past dictate our health state, we integrate the past in taking over the leadership with what we truly are and the body will follow, as it´s an instrument of resonance. 

If you have you consciously create and choose another reality, one that is closer to the truth of your higher being, then a strong focus and willpower is needed to embody the frequency of this reality on any possible level. It´s  the prerequisite for you to make it experienceable. On the way there, it often feels like 2 realities exist in us at the same time and it takes strength to hold both of them in your nervous system. What you still experience on the outside is the old, mostly unconscious manifestation and the new one is still taking physical shape, but already exists on another level. Everything in you may be oriented to this reality and there will be offers of your old self, which may also seem exciting and lucrative, but if you tune into it, they carry the old energy within themselves, wrapped in a new cover Then you need to stay true to your vision, even if you don't even have a clear picture in front of you, but only feel a vague energy of the new creation. Every conscious NO to the old creates space for the new and at the same time is a powerful yes in the field. It takes courage to resist these seductions and to recognise them as what they are, last temptations from the old field.

We live here on this planet in the constant conflict between our conditioned identities and their limitations and the inner call of our soul for freedom and thus authenticity. It feels like an inner tornness, like 2 levels, like 2 worlds. And that's exactly what it is..it's completely different frequencies and we can choose which ones we feed, at any moment, provided we are awake and determined. Our nervous system is the vessel, so we need to expand it over and over to be able to hold the light of the soul and let go of our programs. Authenticity allows us to embody our individual and unique expression of the one whole and bring it into the world. This attracts exactly the opportunities and people who can dance and create with you there. You can breathe and be and become wide and life lives through you.....

The body always knows the truth and you can use the body as a seismograph for your next steps, if something is serving you or not and if someones energy isn´t aligned with his words. The body always tells us the truth, sometimes it´s it's truth from the past and it´s functioning like a guard, so it´s reaction is not trustworthy for the now, as the body relives an event of the past. If we can understand this, we have the most precise messenger of the truth always with us. No guru or spiritual teacher can really know what the right next steps are for you, as we all are also human and see through our limited lense, even when we are so called not fully dreaming the dream of the separated self anymore. To be able to trust the body fully, we have to be in a regulated state of the nerves system. Only then will the body be able to give a clear message to us.  If we are not in a regulated state (and most of us aren't without even realizing) the body is in survival mode and will just respond out of this state, with has nothing to do with the now. So its message is not aligned with the present moment and will therefor send the wrong message to us. 

In this shorter introductory episode, I give you a taste of what is on offer with the Spiritual Stylism podcast. Listen and relax, let the voice wash over you, and feel in your heart if this journey is for you.

With love

your host

Antje

https://www.spiritual-stylism.com

We play the game of separation here and consider ourselves to be this person we embody in this life, as if it were a state carved in stone. This first version of our avatar was never our conscious choice (from a soul perspective certainly it was), we were conditioned into this version of us. Many of us, including the people who look calm and relaxed to the outside, are often without knowing it, permanently in an unregulated state of their nervous system and see the world permanently from a survival mode. Here we have a very limited capacity for perception and can hardly imagine any other reality at all, here we are reactive machines one could say. But there are still countless of other realities of yourself, you can be anything you can imagine and what you long for. You only long for it because this version of you already exists in the quantum field, now at this moment, in a different frequency. You have your life in your hands if you choose to take full responsibility for your reality and focus on what you want to live, again and again, at every moment. You are this creator, you were never anything else, you just forgot how to play the game of life properly.

You probably know how to adapt almost automatically to the mood in your environment and dim your light when someone in your environment is going through a challenging time. This is a matrix program, "we suffer together and thus create a connection". We are often not aware that then no one is in the truth anymore. Our nervous systems automatically vibrate with each other, we as humans are social beings and compassion is a wonderful quality, but pity is of no use to anyone. You both lose yourselves in the illusion and thus feed the wrong self. True connection happens in the truth of your higher self, not in the ego. If you feel that you are losing yourself into the field of the other person to be in his suffering out of false loyalty, to supposedly support him, then wake up and come back to you. Keep the field clear and in truth, not in the apparent truth, but in the only one, keep the field with your true self. So you are the space that regulates without doing anything, without teaching, without robbing the other of his learning field, but you lead with presence. Here, and only here, can healing really happen, because here we are true seers.

Feeling separated and cut off from one's own depths, from one's inner source is the state of most people on this planet. To make the conscious choice to no longer feel numb or on the run and to feel more liveliness within oneself is and falls with the capacity of our nervous system to be able to maintain intensive states. If we were never held from our caregivers in strong inner movements as children, then we have never learned to hold ourselves in them purely biologically. We separate ourselves from our inner experience by thinking instead of feeling, working against it, breathing it away and distracting ourselves with various things and are therefore not at home in ourselves. Life seems to us as a consequence bland and sober, seemingly safe, but we feel no connection in ourselves and with the world. The good news is that we can learn and develop to stick to everything that appears in us. We can let what is shown in us flow unfilterled in the present moment without having to do anything with it. So we feel truly in our body and feel deeply alive, life pulsates in us, because nothing is really separated from us, we are life itself.

We all do it and have often done it as children, we drift into our dream worlds in the future... and dreamed away from the present moment, because it was simply much more beautiful there than what we experienced outside. That's how life could be endured. I have often wondered where exactly the difference is and how I can feel it when I dream away and fantasize and thus avoid the present moment, compared to the pure creation, where I create my reality as I would like it to be. One comes from the Ego, from our personality and thus from a point of lack and the other comes from our higher self, from our essence. If you catch yourself moving away from the present moment, then always come back to the now, don't let yourself be tempted to drift away into fantasy worlds and move away from the presence, this is simply avoiding life and keeping you trapped in the past.