Recorded on the North Bank on Weds., July 28. In the hopes of understanding where he found meaning, clarity, and some sense of self, Patrick fumbles his way through some big questions such as "why am I?" and "how am I?"

He recklessly lays out his concept of temporal stability and assumes self-expression is the beginning of the process of living in God/ in the presence of the Lord.

"I'd never seen the sun so red, and the river so clear." This episode is dedicated to the memory of Jeff Chrzanecki. Happy birthday, old friend.

This episode was originally released on July 28, 2021 as episode 51 of the North Bank Media Podcast, entitled "Why Am I?"