There is a particular kind of tired that comes from loving people on both sides at once.

Not the tired that sleep fixes.

The kind that comes from standing between your children and your aging parents, trying to hold both, and quietly wondering how much longer you can keep showing up for everyone before you run out of something to give.

In this episode, Faith talks honestly about what the sandwich generation actually feels like from the inside: the trips that are not vacations, the weekends that are not rest, the guilt of living far away from the people you love, and the grief of watching someone you love change slowly in front of you.

She shares the Mother’s Day spent cleaning out her grandmother’s room and then driving straight to a nursing home to make it feel more like home. The 48-hour trip to help build a wheelchair ramp. The unexpected funeral. And the quiet moment at the end of it all when she and Johnny sat in a small restaurant and simply cried.

Not because anything dramatic happened in that moment.

Because they had spent the day saying goodbye to one version of family while trying to care for another.

If you’re standing in the middle right now, this episode is for you.

And if you know someone who is, share it with them.

They deserve to feel seen.

You did everything you were supposed to do.

You built the career. Or the family. Or the business. Or the life that everyone else admired from the outside.

And somewhere along the way — without anyone telling you, without even fully noticing — the thing you were working toward stopped feeling like the point.

Maybe you don't want the next promotion anymore.

Maybe you want to keep what you have built small and beautiful instead of scaling it.

Maybe your children are leaving and instead of launching into the next big chapter you just want to protect what you have already built.

And you don't quite know how to say that out loud without feeling like you have to apologize for it.

In this episode of Still Building, Faith talks about the invisible scorecard most of us are carrying — and what happens when you realize you didn't actually write it.

Because changing your definition of success isn't giving up.

It might actually be one of the clearest signs that you are still becoming.

Still Building is a podcast about becoming — honestly. New episodes every week on Spotify and Apple Podcasts.

You finally made the plan.

You blocked the time. You told yourself this week would be different.

And then — without anyone asking, without any real reason — you let it go again.

Sound familiar?

In this episode of Still Building, Faith gets honest about why choosing yourself can feel so selfish even when nobody else is actually asking you not to. About the guilt that shows up before a decision and after it. About the small moments that seem like nothing on their own — but add up to a woman who has quietly negotiated herself out of almost every small claim she could have made on her own time.

And about the one thing worth saying clearly.

Feeling guilty does not always mean you've done something wrong.

Sometimes it just means you're doing something differently.

If you have ever had to justify a decision you ma

For so many of us, the hardest part isn't making the decision.

It's believing we're allowed to.

Allowed to change careers.
Allowed to outgrow relationships.
Allowed to rest.
Allowed to start over.
Allowed to become someone new.

Somewhere along the way, many women learned to wait—for approval, for certainty, for the "right time," or for someone else to tell us it's okay.

What if no one is coming to give us permission?

In this first episode of Season 2, we're talking about the invisible rules we've carried for years, why they keep us stuck, and how reclaiming your own voice may be the beginning of becoming who you've always been.

Because maybe the permission you've been waiting for...
has always been yours to give.

Still Building is a podcast for women navigating midlife, identity, career, motherhood, relationships, and reinvention. Honest conversations for women who know they aren't finished becoming. New episodes every Friday.

This episode is for you.

The woman who has been listening all season.

Who cried at the grief episode. Who heard something about her own marriage in Episode 7. Who felt seen in the friendship conversation and recognized herself in the burnout and the building and the quiet shift of success changing meaning.

In the Season 1 finale Faith looks back at everything this season uncovered — and gets honest about what the making of it taught her about herself.

Including the thing she least expected.

That recording a podcast could heal something thirty years in the making.

She also talks about where she is right now — standing at another beginning, holding everything she has gained, trying not to lose herself in the transition.

Still becoming.

Still figuring it out.

Still building.

And so grateful you are here.

Nobody talks honestly enough about friendship in midlife.

About how hard it is to make new ones. About the ones that have changed across distance and time. About the quiet longing for someone you can call at 3am — and what it means if you don't have that person yet.

In this episode Faith shares her village — the women who have known her since preschool, the friendships she built when she moved across the country, and everything she has learned about what real friendship actually requires.

Including the part about what kind of friend she actually is.

Honest. Loyal. Present.

Not the friend who brings the perfect gift.

The friend who stays.

If friendship in midlife is something you are quietly navigating — pull up a chair. This one is for you.

What does it actually take to make love last thirty years?

Not the highlight reel version. The real one.

In this episode Faith shares the love story she has never told in full — meeting Johnny at 15, falling fast and hard, breaking up, writing a handwritten letter in 1996 to get him back, becoming teenage parents, moving across the country with nothing but each other, and figuring out — slowly, imperfectly — what it actually means to choose someone for thirty years.

This is not a fairytale. It is something better.

It is an honest conversation about what love asks of you — in the early years, the hard years, and the ones where you look across the room at someone you have known for decades and still feel grateful they called that same day.

Because real love is not the butterflies.

It is the staying.

The choosing — again and again — especially when it is hard.

If you have ever loved someone — or wanted to — this episode is for you.

Still Building is a podcast about becoming — honestly.New episodes every week on Spotify and Apple Podcasts.

A gentle note before you press play — this episode goes to tender places. We talk about grief, loss, and the people we carry with us. If you are in a hard season right now please be kind to yourself as you listen. This one is worth it — but take your time getting there.

Grief is one of the things we carry the longest and talk about the least.

We tuck it away so life can keep going. We perform okayness long before we feel it. We tell ourselves we should be over it by now.

We are not over it. We are just carrying it differently.

In this episode I dedicate time to the people I have lost — my brother Luke, who died at 16 and whose quiet gentle presence I still see in my youngest son. My dad, a wonderful and complicated man who broke a painful family cycle and gave us something he never had. My father-in-law Enrique — the most uncomplicated love our family has ever known — whose unexpected loss less than a year ago still catches me off guard every single day.

And my mom — the strongest woman I have ever known — who has taught me more about carrying grief than anyone else in my life. Not by pushing through it. But by sitting down in it. With grace. With faith. With presence.

This episode is also for you — wherever your grief lives. Because grief is not only about death. It shows up in relationships that ended, seasons that are over, dreams that didn't come true, and losses that don't always have names.

And for the women walking beside someone who is grieving — I want to offer you the most important thing my mom taught me.

You don't have to fix it.

You just have to stay.

Still Building is a podcast about becoming — honestly.New episodes every week on Spotify and Apple Podcasts.

At some point this year I stopped asking how do I build more — and started asking something I had never made space for before.

What do I actually want?

Those are very different questions. And for most of my career I didn't have the luxury of the second one.

In this episode I talk honestly about what happens when the life you built is good — and something inside you still shifts. About four and a half years in startup healthcare that taught me who I am as a leader. About finding out I might be laid off and sitting with three weeks of fear, grief, and — unexpectedly — relief.

Relief that someone was finally forcing me to ask what I actually wanted.

I talk about being a professional unicorn — someone whose background doesn't fit neatly into any one box — and learning to see that as a strength rather than something to apologize for. About choosing intentionally for the first time instead of taking the first role offered out of fear. About returning to traditional healthcare not as the person who left burned out in 2021 — but as someone who finally knows who she is as a leader.

And about choosing presence over trajectory. Home over flight. Joy over protection.

This episode is for any woman who has worked hard for a long time and is quietly starting to wonder what she actually wants for herself.

Still Building is a podcast about becoming — honestly. New episodes every week on Spotify and Apple Podcasts.

I never planned to be a leader. I planned to stay at the bedside - a labor and delivery nurse doing the work I loved.

And then my manager was let go. And someone asked me to step in.

That one yes changed everything.

In this episode I talk about the loneliness of leading former friends, the imposter syndrome that followed me into every room, and what was really underneath all that building -protection. For my family. For the stability I had spent my whole life trying to create.

And then COVID came. A parking lot swabbing tent. Scared doctors. Seven days a week for months - until I became physically ill, burned out, and for the first time in my career didn't love what I was doing anymore.

This is the episode about what happens when you give everything.

And what's possible when you finally start building for yourself.

Still Building is a podcast about becoming — honestly. New episodes every week on Spotify and Apple Podcasts.