This one feels different. In this episode, Beverley sets aside the frameworks and the advice to share something more personal — the truth about what it's really like to keep searching for your thing when you haven't found it yet.

From a long list of businesses that never quite took off, to the quiet emotional exhaustion of hoping and going flat and starting again, Beverley reflects on what all that trying has actually built and why not finding the answer yet doesn't mean you're failing.

She also gets honest about something we don't say often enough: wanting to find work you love and wanting it to pay you extremely well. Both. At the same time. Without apology.

If you've been quietly cycling through new ideas, signing up for things and wondering why nothing is breaking through — this episode is for you.

In this episode:

• The moment of restlessness that started it all
• A very long list of things that didn't work out — and what it actually built
• Why being useful to everyone for free isn't the same as having found your thing
• The passion and the money — why we need to be more honest about wanting both
• What the trying might actually be doing, even when it doesn't feel like progress