Day 18 of Living in Response features “Energy Activism,” surrender, “mesodosing cannabis,” life with Hashimoto’s disease + a touch of living astrology.

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Summarized with AI

—> ChatGPT is annoying in that it often won’t summarize content about cannabis. However, I do speak to it in this episode and mention “mesodosing,” which is what I call it when I’ve imbibed more than a microdose and not as much a macrodose, for creative and meditative purposes.

1️⃣ Too Much to Say — Overwhelm & the Creative Process

* Not knowing where to start because there’s so much to say can feel just as paralyzing as having nothing to say.

* The key: Let the body speak. Start somewhere, anywhere—trust the process.

* This episode was recorded after cleaning, journaling, yoga—giving the resistance some space rather than forcing through it.

* Reminder: The process itself is the art.

2️⃣ From Output Obsession to Process Devotion

* Many books and teachers share the output of their journey—but skip over the real-time process.

* I’ve been trying to reverse-engineer my life into a teachable method… and it just doesn’t feel right (yet).

* The magic is in sharing from the middle—not waiting for a polished lesson.

* Letting the process be the gift, rather than something to be wrapped up and sold.

3️⃣ Energy Activism — A Different Kind of Impact

* I may not be lobbying or protesting, but I am participating in change.

* HeartMath’s research proves our energy affects others—coherence is contagious.

* Grounded, calm, embodied people change rooms just by being.

* This is my version of activism—off the radar, but deeply impactful.

4️⃣ Hashimoto’s, Brain Fog & Healing on All Levels

* Recent struggles with thyroid medication reminded me: healing is layered.

* Even after all the energy and spiritual work, my body still needs physical support.

* But I don’t demonize that—medicine is medicine, and all of it is energy.

* Healing is not linear, and it’s not all or nothing. It’s all part of the path.

5️⃣ Stop Demonizing Your Process

* I used to look back on past spiritual trainings and feel shame—“Was that all a waste?”

* Now I see it differently: everything I did brought me here.

* Trying, doing, realizing something wasn’t for me—that’s not failure, it’s wisdom.

* Acceptance over shame. Curiosity over judgment.

6️⃣ Surrender is a Feeling

* Surrender isn’t just a concept—it’s a physical, emotional feeling.

* In meditation today (with gentle cannabis support), I found myself feeling surrender.

* Mantras like “It’s okay to not know” and “Let go” dropped me deeper into presence.

* I’m learning to create surrender in my body when I need it most.

7️⃣ Preparation Meets Trust

* I used to feel pressure to explain how I got to where I am.

* But I’m learning to trust that whatever wants to come through in the moment will.

* Practicing this at events, in conversations, and in sharing my work.

* The trust muscle is growing—and it’s deeply tied to surrender.

8️⃣ Astrology & Archetypes of Energy

* Briefly touched on the shift from Pisces (surrender, mist, endings) to Aries (spark, new beginnings).

* Astrology as a language of energetic expression that mirrors the body.

* My sun moving into the 12th house reflects this deep inner process of surrender before the spark.

Mentions & Resources(not affiliated, just a fan)

* Creative WeedWork by @destinythemuse

* Visionary weekend hosted in LA (March 21-23)

* HeartMath Institute (for heart coherence research)

* “The Subtle Body” by Cyndi Dale

I’m feeling a little more tired today than usual, so I’m going to take extra care of supporting all aspects of my wellness today.

In eternal gratitude!

Mystically,

Belle

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