I recorded this on Zoom and the video quality was sooooo bad lol. I thought I could get past it but I cannot so I’ll just be doing audio instead for the time being :)

This is the start of something different. No real editing, no overthinking - just speaking and seeing where it goes. In this first recording, I explore the challenges of self-expression, the struggle between writing and speaking, the ways we bring ideas to life, and a slew of other tangents that have been swimming around in my field lately.

Topics Covered

Summarized by AI

* Breaking the Cycle of Perfectionism – Why I’ve started so many things and never followed through, and why this time feels different.

* Creative Flow & Mental Loops – How my thoughts cycle when I try to write and why speaking feels like a better outlet.

* AI as a Reflection Tool – How I use ChatGPT, not as a replacement for thinking, but as a way to mirror my own ideas. I also consider the impacts of technology like AI.

* The Power of Speaking Ideas into Life – The difference between writing and saying something out loud, and how that changes the way I process thoughts.

* Moving Beyond Fixing Myself – Shifting from constantly trying to overcome blocks to simply living and expressing.

* Core Values as Feelings – Identifying comfort, transformation, spirituality, wellness, and love as the feelings that guide me.

* The Tension Between Comfort and Growth – Wanting to stay grounded while also leaning into the discomfort of change.

* Embodiment, Energy, and Psychedelic Exploration – How practices like proprioception, interoception, and psychedelic cannabis have shifted my understanding of myself.

* Resilience and Ancestry – The weight of where I come from, the challenges my family has faced, and how that informs the way I move through the world.

* The Nuance of Human Design – How learning about my design has helped and sometimes frustrated me.

* Letting This Be What It Is – Why I’m not trying to turn this into something polished or structured, and why that feels right (for now).

Final Thoughts

This is an experiment in speaking unfiltered, in sharing without needing to package everything neatly. It’s about exploring ideas in real time and seeing where they lead.

No plan, no real agenda besides just following what feels alive.

Mystically,

Belle

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