The blog post I mentioned - https://proflobotomy.wixsite.com/professor-noorie/post/the-agony-of-loving-someone
It's my exploration of the questions I asked myself... did I give myself many answers? I'm not sure. For a little while it did. It was fun to explore stories like this though.
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But I'd rather hear what you all think... can people use youtube videos to have a conversation? 
At times I find myself hyperfixating on things, stories and sciences, and for those who are generally quiet unless a hyperfixation is mentioned... in can seem like we don't care. Then with lots of philosophies they proclaim not to become too attached but... is that really possible for those like us? Those who find meaning and joy in the interests? Who find something so wonderous in them? 
... I suppose I'm asking if there is a way to love things without hurting ourselves or others. 
I'm not sure. I hurt others anyways.
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Also the song that plays during the first part and last part is called 'rainy day' and I LOVE IT SO MUCH

"Greetings! Salutations! So on and so forth! Name's Noorie (they/them), pleasure to make your acquaintance, dear traveler! I'll have chai ready in a moment."

To you, fellow wonderer, fellow wanderer, fellow creature of misty rain dreaming and sipping liquid moonlight, to you who finds the universe something tangled and messy and numb...

I offer a hidden, secret, safe place, hidden beneath magnolia trees, stuffed animals - the ones we 'should've left behind long ago' - nestled between moss blanketed branches, fireflies dotting the silver-sewn leaves.

Here we'll poke at reality where it cannot touch us, with stories and ramblings and way too many metaphors.

We can also talk about biology... because the stars know how hard school makes it.

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Story overviews:

The Land of the Fallen Fairies - A houseplant fairy lives a quaint story with faer guardian, who's supposed to kill faer but loves faer... it's a mistake for the protagonist to love the villain.

Teddy the Nightmare Warrior - A wronged soul dies through a paranormal disease and possesses the body of a teddy bear. They'll search for the truth of the paranormal, even if it drives them mad.

Bio-story - An enzyme realizes they're meant to doom the cell if they wish to fulfill the purpose they crave... so instead they embark on a time loop to either fix things or destroy the cell in a hopeless frenzy.