The Gravity between Us

I fear telling you how much I truly love you. Each moment by your side fills my world with so much joy. With each passing day, I feel more connected to you. It's like freely falling.

You know that feeling on a rollercoaster when it dives down, and you feel the ticklish sensation inside? Yes, that's exactly how it feels to be falling for you. But as I fall, my head is clouded with thoughts, the outcomes. You call it overthinking, but I call it fear. With every fall, you meet the ground. For me, reaching the ground isn't scary, but how much hit I'll have to take is.

Falling in love is beautiful, but breaking for love is fearful. As I open the doors to my heart for you, I'm afraid of the what-ifs. What if you don't love me as much as I do? What if I'm the only one falling in love as you're falling out? The uncertainties are daunting. I love you so much that it hurts me to even think about the smallest chance of a what-if.

I'm sorry, love. It's not that I don't trust you; it's just that I struggle to believe someone could love me the way I love them. I know my insecurities and my need for reassurance can be draining at times. I've tasted the pain of loss, and trust me, I never want to taste it again.

But seeing you smile makes me think; your smile is a beam of warmth, a beam of sun even on the cloudiest days. When I was lost in darkness, trying to light my candle with shaking hands, you held my hand and helped light my candle with yours. In a place full of houses, you chose to be my home, the warm place where my heart finds comfort.

In the canvas of existence, you are like a beautiful painting, a masterpiece that I never thought I could paint because nothing I ever paint can be as beautiful as you. You're my muse, the one for whom I wake up, get out of bed, and push myself to do better. With you, I've learned to love myself a little more.

Your happiness has become the source of my joy, and your smile is a treasure I accidentally stumbled upon but now can't let go. The sparkle in your eyes is what I crave every day. The way you don't say much but make me feel it all. You're a dream I never knew I needed. You're the stars to my empty sky and the moon to my cloudy night. You've become the lyrics to all the love songs, and every romantic movie is about us now. You are not just my everything; you are so much more. More than I ever asked for. Your mere existence is the cheese to my pizza.

Home isn’t home anymore

These days I yearn to return home,

yet, no place feels like home anymore.

I thought home is where I’d always be,

but, going back now, it doesn’t feel like me.

I thought home was where my parents were,

But now i’m not so sure, it’s also blur.

I am left wondering as my thoughts start to roam,

Where exactly is this place that I call home?

Worried and confused, I gaze back at my past,

Through fading memories, I find things that didn’t last.

Tears fall as I recall the warmth of my family‘s embrace,

I remember now what made a place home, in this familiar space.

But now, if fear my home won’t be, as it was,

The walls have crumble, and the memories lost.

Where laughter once echoed, in the light of the day, those moments have vanished, like stars in the Milky Way.

I get it now, I can't simply find home,

It’s not there, in the past, where I used to roam.

I'll make my own haven, memories I'll store,

Because the old home, it exists no more.

Ever since you left, everything reminds me if you.

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We collided beautifully.

Oink

Just me like always, talking about things that don’t make sense.