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And then I said something to myself on video that scared me. It actually created this visceral fear response. And I could feel this fear energy just pouring out of my, my chakra I don't know, the belly one, what's that called? Like the power center, not the heart, the navel or something. And it was so intense. And then it sort of spread down my legs and through my whole body. And I just felt so afraid. And it was so obvious that I had made my nervous system weak. And what I said on video actually deleted. I was like, I can't say that. Because it felt like a premonition and felt like a prophecy or it felt like inviting that into my experience or increasing the likelihood of it being a possibility or maybe it is actually going to happen. And so just by seeing it and saying Oh, but I'm okay with that. And then seeing my body's response, it was almost like I'm not okay with that. And I don't know if I'm not okay with saying that. I'm not okay with having that as a premonition or a possibility. Or that that's going to happen in this life or that it happened in a past life. This is where fear can open up. This sort of nonlinear interpretation is happening now. It was just something I said that made me afraid, but it made me afraid of something in the future or something of the past possibly, and I don't know which. 

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