When Jesus said, “Blessed are those who mourn,” He was speaking directly into the kind of grief that takes your breath away. In this episode, we unpack Matthew 5:4 and what it really means to be blessed in the middle of unbearable loss. If you are a mom grieving the suicide of your child and wondering where comfort is, this gentle conversation will remind you that your tears are seen, your mourning is not weakness, and you are not walking this road alone.

When a mom loses her child to suicide, she is grieving more than death — she is grieving shock, questions, and often silence. In this episode, we gently share what moms wish their churches understood about suicide loss. This is an invitation to pastors and church members to love more intentionally, speak more carefully, and create safer spaces for grieving families. Honest, compassionate, and rooted in Scripture — because the Church should be the safest place for the broken.

In this deeply honest episode, Janet shares about the reality of darkness in a broken world and how it can quietly overwhelm even the most loved and prayed-over child. “When the Darkness Took My Child” speaks truth about spiritual battle, despair, and the grief that follows suicide loss—without minimizing the pain or ignoring the hope we have in Christ.

If you have ever felt like something dark stole your child from you, this episode will remind you that darkness is real—but it is not sovereign. God is still near to the brokenhearted, and nothing can separate your child from His love.

You are not alone.

Have you ever felt like your tears meant you weren’t trusting God enough?

After losing a child to suicide, many moms quietly carry an extra weight — the fear that their grief somehow reflects weak faith. In this honest and freeing episode of Testimony Through Tears, Janet gently confronts that myth head-on.

Grief is not rebellion.
Grief is not doubt.
Grief is not a spiritual failure.

Grief is love with nowhere to go.

Through Scripture, personal reflection, and tender truth, you’ll be reminded that even Jesus wept. That a broken heart does not push God away — it draws Him near. Psalm 34:18 promises that the Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and that includes you.

If you’ve been silently wondering whether your sorrow disappoints God, this episode will breathe relief into your soul.

You can love God deeply and still ache fiercely.
You can trust Him and still cry.
You can believe and still grieve.

Your grief does not disqualify your faith.

Press play and let’s walk through this together.

Some days the weight feels unbearable. The silence in your home is loud. The questions won’t stop. And you wonder how you’re supposed to keep going.

In this tender episode of Testimony Through Tears, Janet speaks directly to the mom whose heart feels shattered by suicide loss. With honesty, compassion, and Scripture, she reminds you that you are not walking this road by yourself.

If the loneliness feels overwhelming…
If guilt and grief are crashing in waves…
If you just need someone to sit beside you in the darkness…

This episode is for you.

Rooted in the promise of Psalm 34:18 — “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted” — you’ll be gently reminded that God draws near to crushed hearts. He is not distant from your pain. He is present in it.

Take a deep breath. Press play. Let these words hold you for a few minutes.

You are seen.
You are loved.
And you are not alone.

What does it mean to glorify God when your heart is shattered?

In this episode, we sit with 1 Corinthians 10:31 and explore how God’s glory is not diminished by grief—but often revealed through it. This conversation is for the mother who has lost a child to suicide and wonders how faith fits into a life forever changed.

You’ll hear reassurance that your tears do not dishonor God, that your child’s life still mattered deeply, and that guilt does not belong to you. We talk honestly about broken faith, daily survival, releasing false shame, and holding onto eternal hope—even when it feels like only a flicker.

This is not an episode about pretending you’re okay or finding silver linings. It’s about meeting God in the valley, discovering that He is near to the brokenhearted, and learning that even here—your life, your love, and your grief can still glorify Him.

If you are a grieving mother walking through unimaginable loss, you are not alone. God is with you, and He is gentle with your heart.

🎧 Listen, rest, and be reminded: even here, God is still faithful.

Romans 10:15

What if God calls tired feet beautiful?

In this episode, we sit with Romans 10:15 and the powerful truth that God doesn’t wait for us to feel healed, strong, or ready before He sends us. He calls willing hearts—and faithful feet.

If you’re a mom walking through deep grief, especially after the loss of a child, this episode is for you. Your feet have walked hard roads you never chose, yet God sees them as holy and beautiful. Not because of perfection—but because of obedience, perseverance, and love.

This is a gentle but honest conversation about being sent while still hurting, carrying good news through tears, and allowing God to use your story—even when it still aches.

You don’t have to have it all figured out.
You don’t have to feel brave.
You just have to take the next step.

Let this episode remind you that you are not disqualified by grief—and that God walks with you, every step of the way.

💛 A prayer is included at the end for the mom who feels tired, unsure, but willing.

What happens when you’re living a godly life—and suffering still comes?

In this episode, we sit with 2 Timothy 3:12, a verse that speaks honestly about the cost of following Christ. For moms grieving the loss of a child to suicide, this scripture reminds us that suffering is not a sign of failure or weak faith. It is not proof that God has turned away.

Together, we talk about what persecution can look like in grief—the isolation, the misunderstanding, the quiet weight carried day after day—and how God remains present in the midst of it all.

If you’ve ever wondered why this pain found you even while you were faithful, this episode offers truth, grounding, and hope for the road you’re walking now.

You are not abandoned.
You are not disqualified.
And your story is still being held by God.

In this episode, I share my story—the hardest one I’ve ever told. The loss of my daughter changed everything, and for a long time, I didn’t know if I was strong enough to speak about it out loud.

This is not a polished story or a story of quick healing. It’s an honest testimony of love, loss, faith, anger, survival, and the quiet ways God met me when I could barely stand. It’s about delayed grief, wrestling through pain, and learning that God is still present—even when you can’t feel Him.

If you’re a mom who has lost a child and finds yourself thinking, she gets me… she’s been there, this episode is for you. My hope is that as you listen, you feel less alone—and maybe, when the time is right, you’ll begin to believe that your story still matters too.

God heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. And even through tears, He is still writing our testimony.

Losing a child to suicide shatters more than a heart—it reshapes faith, identity, and the way we understand God. In this episode, we gently explore how deep loss can become part of a sacred testimony—not by rushing healing or minimizing pain, but by recognizing God’s presence in the hardest places.

Written for moms who are walking the unthinkable road of suicide loss, this conversation offers reassurance that your grief does not disqualify you, your questions do not offend God, and your story is still unfolding. You’ll be reminded that testimony doesn’t require resolution—only honesty—and that God is near, even when the path forward feels unclear.

If you are learning how to carry both sorrow and faith, this episode meets you right where you are—with truth, hope, and the promise that your tears are not wasted.