I was depressed for almost 5 months after Biggy 237 and spent close to 7 months in therapy but not even my ex girlfriend nor my very close friends knew about it.
I was depressed and suffering from conflicting choices.
I was always alone even in the midst of everyone talking and laughing.
Unlike other people my therapist said I should face my fear so I spent time here every minute posting and posting because my biggest problem came from here and at the same time she said my solution will come from here.
I got bullied right in my inbox .
I lost friends and almost lost family.
I visited my family only three months after the show cause I could not face them.
I use to thing the darkest part of my life was from the age of 10 to 17 but trust me the past one year has been the darkest.
I would walk into people sitting somewhere and not say anything not because I saw myself different but because I feel they gonna judge me before they even know who I am. But it didn't still help cause I was still called proud.
I just got up one day with no reason and decided to call it quit with my ex girlfriend then few moments later I ran back to beg her . It was a crazy December for me. She said I had anger issues but that just got me more furious.
My God Mother Glam Media always talked me out sometimes without even knowing. But J the long calls we had that period helped a great deal.
I spent all the money I made in the past one year paying for the debts I got myself into to pay for therapy and and alcohol. Epie Makoge Kollins just knew he would always call me on video and find me with alcohol , the one today he called me an alcoholic not knowing that I was gradually turning to one.
It was dark and it's still dark but getting clear.
If you are not ready don't get into that show. It's not for the weak .
I am the always smiling MC Dibenja and remember I make and sell sunglasses.
Smile today ☺️