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This week, we stepped into: Recovering a Sense of Integrity

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Key Theme We Explored

1. Honest Changes

This week was all about being honest with yourself, no performance, no pretending, no filters. Integrity starts when you stop performing wellness and start documenting your truth. Morning Pages came up again because they keep you grounded in your voice. But like I said in class, this isn’t just about writing - it’s about documentation. Even if you’re not writing every morning (though that’s the preferred method), there are other ways to process your life. Some of us think better out loud. Some of us need to see it or feel it.

Voice note, voice note, voice note. If you can’t write, record yourself. If you have an iPhone, you can even get those notes transcribed. I’m sure Androids have something similar. Or you can make a quick video diary - five to ten minutes of you talking through whatever’s on your mind and saving that just for you. The point is to document your life. Because when you have a safe space to tell the truth, you can come back to it later and witness yourself—what you were thinking, how you were feeling, and what you realized. That’s how real reflection happens.

What we talked about is how there’s a difference between personal feelings and public feelings.* Public feelings are filtered through survival - through bias, fear, culture, expectations.* Personal feelings are raw and unedited. They tell the truth before your mind tries to clean it up.

Most people are walking around living from their public feelings and that’s why so many struggle with integrity. They’re disconnected from what they actually feel. Documentation brings that honesty back.

Being honest with yourself keeps you authentic - yessss, that word gets overused, but it’s real. It reminds you that you’re your own original source. When you document your truth, you don’t fall into comparison or imposter syndrome. You stop copying what inspires you and start creating from that inspiration. That’s the shift from competition to collaboration, from insecurity to expansion.

🌑 In the After-Party Notes, we go deeper into this - how imposter syndrome and copycat energy actually show up in creative spaces, and how to transmute both into clarity and collaboration instead of self-doubt.

Main Activity: Buried Dreams

The goal is to remind your creative self what actually sounds fun right now, not what looks impressive.

Do this:

* List five hobbies that sound fun.

* List five classes that sound fun.

* List five things you personally would never do that sound fun.

* List five skills that would be fun to learn.

* List five things you used to enjoy doing.

* List five silly things you’d like to try once.

Five minutes per list max, stop overthinking and let your curiosity lead you somewhere joyful.

Reading Deprivation + Social Media Detox

This week is all about under-consuming. We’re so used to taking in information all day — reading, scrolling, watching, saving, that most of us don’t realize how much energy that drains.

The goal isn’t to deprive yourself. It’s to see how often you reach for outside voices instead of sitting with your own. When you stop flooding your brain with input, you create space to actually think, to listen, to imagine.

I invited everyone in class to treat this like a creative fast. No pressure, no perfection just awareness. When you catch yourself reaching for your phone, ask: what am I avoiding right now? That’s the real practice.

All that energy you’d usually spend consuming can be redirected toward creating, reflecting, or simply resting. You don’t need to fill every quiet moment. Sometimes the most productive thing you can do is let your own voice get loud again.

Tasks

* Environment Describe your ideal environment. Go through old magazines or use Canva to create a digital board of environments that feel good to you. If you have the Lotus Life Deck template, this connects directly to the Home section — go update that if you haven’t already.

* Time Travel (Future You) Describe yourself at 80 years old. What did you do after 50 that you really enjoyed? Be specific. Now write a letter from your 80-year-old self to your current self. What would they tell you? What interests would they urge you to pursue? What dreams would they encourage?

* Time Travel (Child You) Remember yourself at eight years old. What did you love doing back then? What were your favorite things? Write a letter from that version of you to who you are now. What would they remind you of?

* Environment 2 Look at your home. Is there any corner or room you could turn into a private space just for you? This isn’t an office — this is a dream area. Decorate it for fun. Let it feel sacred, creative, and soft.

* Life Pie Check-In Go back to your Life Pie from Week One and review your growth. Has anything shifted? Are you more expressive, more flexible, more active? Don’t rush it. Growth needs time to settle in.

* Artist Prayer Write your own Artist Prayer and use it daily for one week. Let it sound like you, no rules, just intention. I’ve left mine below.

* Extended Artist Date Plan a mini-vacation for yourself - one weekend day dedicated fully to you. Put it on the calendar and follow through.

* Closet Clean-Out Open your closet and remove anything that carries low-self-worth energy. Donate or discard what doesn’t match who you’re becoming.

* Self-Inquiry Look at one situation in your life that you know needs to change but hasn’t yet. Ask yourself: What’s the payoff for staying stuck? Be honest, that awareness is the doorway to movement.

* Reading Deprivation Reflection If you broke your reading or social-media fast, write about it. Did it happen as a tantrum, a slip-up, a binge? How do you feel about it, and why?

MY PERSONAL ARTIST PRAYER

I am prepared to be a vessel of your love and creativity. May my heart echo beauty, embracing new ideas on the canvas of my life. Center me in a divine awareness that my life itself is art, and I am living art too. I trust your guidance and timing, understanding that creativity is your gift within me.

Dear Ancestors, weave belief in my soul, let me be a living legacy, filled with the spirit of the most honorable and creative among you. Through your guidance, protection and support, may my creations add beauty to the world. Help me love and inspire others, fortifying our faith and abundance.

God, guide my heart and hands to create expressions of beauty reflecting your love. Soothe any fear and transform failure into unwavering faith. Lead me to places and people who deeply appreciate the healing in my creations. May every energy exchange be easy and may I be paid extremely well for my creativity. Let art overflow into every part of my life, reflecting the boldness of my spirit.

May my voice and genius provide a safe space and medicine for those who interact with me. Let gratitude be my new baseline, shaping how I move throughout every part of my day. Keep me connected to wonder, inspired and compassionate toward every version of myself. Grant me clarity and fortitude to live out every idea and desire in my heart. May patience and confidence guide the continual blossoming of my creativity - reminding me of my power to unfold like a Lotus flower. In every moment, remind me to be grateful for opportunities, collaboration, new ideas, and growth. I thank you in advance for the expected and unexpected blessings, miracles & other divine experiences on the way.

Ase.

Week Four Check-In

These are the same questions we use each week to stay grounded:

* How many days did you complete your Morning Pages (or documentation practice)? How did it feel?

* Did you take yourself on an Artist Date? What did you do?

* Did any synchronicities or insights show up this week?

* Any new awareness around your sense of integrity, honesty, or alignment with your art?

I love you & thank you for celebrating my birthday with me!! I will be celebrating all scorpio szn long!!!

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