This week has been interesting. Started a new book to help me with feeling stuck artistically and wow did it open a whole area for me to deal with. This podcast is a bit different than most, I talk about the discovery and beginning process of what he is doing in me.

There is a difference between your Calling and your Gifting. They both may be used together, but again they may not. It seems that some, like myself struggle with one or the other… what is my Calling? God’s answer and timing are perfect even thought at times it most definitely does not feel that way! But the answers will in fact come in the waiting.

Transitioning isn’t a place we like to be or stay long, but it is part of the process of stepping into what you have been waiting and believing for. A part we cannot check out or skip out of. We must just stay focused in the mist of it and help press through.

We want to be positive, we try to be positive, but for me it has gotten to a place that I am just not hitting the target. That is how I have felt and today I realize it is time to step up my time with God and decide I need more of Him and less of anything else I have been doing without Him.

Not feeling well today, but I made the choice as an act of my will to trust God to get me through… question is do I completely do that all the time even when I am not sick and needed him just to get through ..praying we all do.

Have you had a day that you just knew something was different, you were different. The light bulb came on and you finally see and know God has done something within you. I try to find the words to describe the feelings of what change I saw and how we don’t always acknowledge these changes. How we can be more alert or in tune to what our Father in heaven is doing with us and through us. I do my best to convey these feelings/ emotions of how I woke up different.

Stand your ground, use what God has given you, stay focused and be who God called you to be no matter how much you see or hear around you makes you feel scared or fearful. Stand strong in your trust and faith in God, knowing you have him with you and living in you. It is time and soon, very soon it will be your time to Breakout.

It is made clear in the word we are to Rejoice. In fact it is said to us twice to rejoice. It is made clear we are to do so that graciousness come from us. The only way to make sure to be able to do that is to run to the Father in constant prayer. Otherwise it is sure something else will most assuredly come out of us.

I find myself back in a place I didn’t want to be, being provoked by my own feelings of being wronged. Justification is a unsafe place to be, it makes us think we have the right to be and feel the way we do, but in doing so we are in disobedience to God. Vengeance is the Lord’s and he makes that quite clear. He wants us to be the one He can trust and go to, but it takes us letting go of what we feel is justified to grab hold of the truth of His word. We must always run to him knowing he knows best.

Nothingness- the feeling of nothing is moving, nothing is happening, like total vacancy in your brain. No matter which one it is the trust is that is just our flesh or the enemy working to stop us. Stopping us moving forward and knowing God is Always moving and doing on our behalf.