A free subscriber meditation for transmuting physical suffering into conscious presence

This meditation accompanies The Journey From Unconscious Scapegoat to Awakened Seer – Part Three: How Pain Opened the Door to the Divine.

Rather than resisting or escaping physical pain, this practice invites you to meet it with awareness, curiosity, and compassion. Pain becomes the doorway, not the obstacle.

Through gentle guidance, you will be supported to alchemise pain into presence, allowing the wounded and resilient, receptive and directive, feminine and masculine aspects within you to come back into relationship. As these inner polarities soften and integrate, a deeper sense of wholeness can emerge.

This is not about fixing the body or bypassing suffering. It is about listening deeply, restoring balance within, and discovering what becomes possible when nothing is pushed away.

Welcome to Episode 6 of the Awakened Scapegoat Podcast.

In this audio version of the third instalment in a six part Substack series, The Journey of the Unconscious Scapegoat to Awakened Seer, I continue to share the experiences that have shaped me into the person I am today.

In this episode, I reflect on my experience of a spiritual emergency brought on by a premature Kundalini awakening, which led to an existential crisis and the unravelling of long held conditioning.

I will also explore how I accidentally discovered my telepathic abilities just in the nick of time, an experience that quite literally saved my life and marked the beginning of an initiation process. The result was the opening of my third eye, the awakening of my extrasensory abilities, and the first steps in learning how to walk between two worlds.

If you would prefer to read the blog version, you can find it here or on Substack at DivinityWithin7.

Thank you for being here. Your presence is so greatly appreciated.

Welcome to Episode 3 of the Awakened Scapegoat Podcast

In this audio version of the second instalment in a six part Substack series, The Journey of the Unconscious Scapegoat to Awakened Seer, I continue to share the years of my early adulthood, becoming a mother, navigating the painful realities of narcissistic abuse, addictions, domestic violence, and oppressive power structures.

I speak honestly about the breaking points, the unraveling, and how allowing myself to fully enter the dark night of the soul became the path to reclaiming my true self.

This isn't just my story, it's an offering to anyone walking their own path through pain and awakening to let you know you are not alone.

If you'd prefer to read the blog version, you can find it here or on Substack at DivinityWithin7.

Thank you for being here. Your presence truly matters.

Welcome to Episode 2 of the Awakened Scapegoat Podcast.

This is where my six part personal story, The Journey from Unconscious Scapegoat to Awakened Seer, truly begins:.

It begins at home, in a place that was meant to feel safe, but did not. I grew up in poverty, within a dysfunctional and narcissistic household where survival came before stability, an environment that was deeply traumatic for a shy and sensitive child.

When I stepped into school and church, I hoped for something different. But instead, I found more of the same. The adults in those spaces, teachers, authority figures, even the church, didn’t see me. They saw a version of me shaped by their own projections. I was labeled, scapegoated, and shoved into an identity that never belonged to me.

So I turned inward. Books became my refuge. My imagination, my escape. That inner world was where I could still hear my truth, even when no one else cared to listen.

Looking back, that was the beginning. The start of the path that would one day lead me here—to helping other scapegoats, truth tellers, intuitives, and outsiders remember who they really are and reclaim the divinity that’s always lived inside them.

If this speaks to something deep in you, I see you. You're not alone.

You can also read this story here or on my Substack at DivinityWithin7.

Thank you for showing up.

In this debut episode, Caroline Tobin introduces The Awakened Scapegoat — a podcast for intuitives, scapegoats, black sheep and truth tellers navigating spiritual awakening, heightened perception, and the cost of seeing what others deny. 

We explore scapegoat dynamics, spiritual narcissism, new age cults, and the lonely path of living in alignment with truth — a path that often brings personal loss, but also profound soul growth

In this heartwarming second part of our powerful conversation, Marina deepens into the truth of her journey. If the collapse began with loss, the healing began with courage, the courage to turn inward. She speaks candidly about the vital, often uncomfortable truth: that in order to truly heal, we must allow our shadow to rise. We must stop bypassing it, and instead, bring it into the light for honest examination.

For Marina, this meant allowing herself to feel, really feel, everything. The grief. The anger. The despair. Nothing was off limits. Everything she once had achieved, her work, her identity, her home, her relationships, had been stripped away. But in that raw space, she discovered something unexpected: the beginnings of wholeness.

She shares how she stood up against corruption, how her voice became a tool of resistance, and how, in the ruins, she found something sacred her connection to Spirit, to truth, and to the inner compass she had almost lost. It was not easy. It was not clean. But it was real.

Marina also reflects on the simple, grounding power of nature as a healing balm, and the necessity of cultivating gratitude, even when we do not understand why things are happening, even when we do not like them. Because the gold, as she reminds us, is often buried deep within the shadow. And we must be willing to go there, if we are to come home to ourselves.

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In this first of a powerful two part conversation, Marina shares the moment everything changed. Once seen as the black sheep, she had gone on to build what many would call a highly successful life, rooted in years of hard work, service, and dedication through her dentistry practice. But one accident sent it all into collapse. Her career, her marriage, her sense of identity, everything she thought made her who she was, suddenly began to unravel.

As the foundations of her life fell away, Marina experienced what the scapegoat archetype can bring in these moments—both its lessons and its gifts. She was blamed, smeared, and exiled for being a truth teller. Her voice disrupted what others wanted to keep hidden, and there were attempts to silence her. But she refused to stay silent.

What followed was a deep descent into what is often called the dark night of the soul, a stripping away of illusions, roles, and expectations. But Marina did not run from it. She met it head on, and in time, surrendered, to the pain, to the unknown, and ultimately, to the divine.

In this episode, she begins to share what that journey looked like: the grief, the letting go, and the raw truth of what it means to lose the life you built, only to discover something far more real beneath it all. Her voice, her wisdom, and her authentic purpose began not in success, but in surrender to her pathway.

Contact Marina here