8:42pm, April 21st, 2024, Desk, UT

As I sit here and type this out, I wonder if I am in those grinding, golden, fun years of my life right now by going through all the things I’m doing. I’m sitting here on my bed typing all this out absolutely exhausted and all I can help with think is this is going to be a cool story in 15 years. And it would be absolutely easy for me to just give up on everything and disappear. What a shitty story that would be and what a load of regret that would be on my chest for the rest of my life. 

12:11am, April 20th, 2024, Desk, UT

I got asked how I get my fire/drive back when Iose it and I don’t want to do something. Like running, a workout, an ice bath, whatever it is. I think back to my life before I started all this and get scared of feeling like that loser piece of shit I was. That’s a big one for me now when I think about it. That’s what I do.

9:13pm, April 19th, 2024, Desk, UT

Here’s a list below of all the accomplishments of the last tiny little 6 months of my life. It’s wild to look back and see this stack of proof. What’s crazier to think about is how this is only 6 months. I have 80 years of life left. And this is what I was able to accomplish in 1/160th of that. So awesome. Very proud. Here’s the list I wrote in my notes app on my iphone. Nothing fancy, just writing notes. As always, it’s as i wrote it. Nothing changed or edited. It’s ugly and not fancy, but that’s why im doing this podcast. Document everything.

• Completed 75 hard

8:02pm, April 18th, 2024, Desk, UT

Lots of stress for not doing anything yet. Just trying to navigate this path the best I can. I wanted to share all of this with you so you can rest assured that it’s normal to have these forecasted thoughts that cause stress and frustration. You’re not alone. I’m literally figuring this out day by day as I go. There’s only hints and guidebooks, no blueprints. My life and their life and his life and your life are not the same. Maybe similar in some ways, but there’s no perfect blueprint. And if there were, what would that cost? 

Anyway, thanks for listening. Means a lot. If you’re listening to this in 2029, send me a DM or comment on my stuff with #2029Listener182BED. Fun little experiment.

5:47pm, April 17th, 2024, Car Ride Home From Gym/Work, UT

Currently, my goal for bed is to be asleep by 8:00pm. Which usually has me in bed by 8 and asleep by 8:20-40. Somewhere around there. I’ve noticed significant changes in my ability to focus, concentrate, and get work done when I have restful nights. Sleep really is the cure-all for everything.

At this point in my life, I’m sleeping around 8:20, awake by 3:22am, ice bath by 3:35am, shower, dressed, prep, and work by 5, work 5-2:30pm, gym until roughly 3:30 or 4. Home by 4:15ish, work on goals until 7:30, prep for bed and repeat. I’m sure this will change soon too as I get my own place again in 2 weeks from today. Episode 195 will be the new chapter episode or some shit. 

Let’s go.

10:23am, April 16th, 2024, Desk, UT

I used to have the problem of getting upset when I would hear my goals would take 2 years to accomplish. Now? With everything i’ve learned in the last 8.5 months? If it’s less than 20 years it’s quicker than I thought. I am willing to bet that I will attribute a lot of my success in 5 years to this mindset alone. The perspective that anything less than 20 years is relatively fast. I’ll hear big guys in the industry talk about time frames for goals, and I have yet to hear any of them mention 20 years. It’s always 10 or less. Sometimes 15. So with that frame of mind, it makes all of these goals of mine seem more than achievable.

6:28pm, April 15th, 2024, Desk, UT

In order to get into a good habit, you first have to make it as easy as humanly possible to succeed. Otherwise you set yourself up for failure. This is just one way of thinking and one perspective. But if you sign up for a gym an hour away, the likelihood that you, without a good habit of hitting the gym daily, will actually make that drive every day, is extremely low. But if that gym were a 4 minute walk away, you’d probab;y adhere to the new plan more easily. The barriers and resistance are so little that it’s so easy for you to do this.

After a while of doing it, you build that discipline and consistency. Then, discipline keeps the habit going. So one school of thought here is that convenience and ease of execution is what gets a good thing going, but discipline and commitment is what keeps it long term.

Make it as easy as possible to work as hard as you can.

5:47pm, April 14th, 2024, Desk, UT

I am looking forward to the new chapter in life I am about to start. It’s going to be the hardest chapter in my life so far if I had to imagine. But that’s because it’s a lot of things combined together that I have no reference point for. When I think about all of this, and how life was for me when I had my own place previously in 2 other states, I reminisce about it was for me. It was isolated and empty for me. Now, I come home to people and can say what’s up. I won’t have that luxury anymore. It’ll be me and me only. All me. I am pumped for the challenges for damn sure, but I’d be lying if I said negative, self-doubting thoughts resurface more frequently at the thought. But what gets me going again is to think about where I was 8 and a half months ago verses where I am now. My self doubts then are things I laugh about now. It’s a growth game. Time to get hella uncomfortable again.

Also mentioned the idea of Milestone Episodes. Every 91-92 episodes I’ll do a recap of the last 90 days. Every 183 I’ll do a recap of the last half year. Every 365 I’ll do a recap of the last year. And so on. I dunno.

8:40pm, April 13th, 2024, Desk, UT

Generally speaking, I feel like my vision in the macro is dialed in. But my vision in the micro is not where it should be right now. Which sort of contradicts itself in a way. How can I see the long game if my short game is total ass? Time blocking seems to me the secret sauce. After one go at it my day was infinitely better. Interesting how that works huh. Gotta stop procrastinating.

10:33pm, April 12th, 2024, Desk, UT

I do this thing where I’ll let one bad day really change my whole perspective on my life. Even if I have 99 straight days of excellence, if that 100th day is a total flop, it makes me feel like I am doing everything wrong and I could’ve done so much better. It is awful. 1 bad day is in fact not the end of the world.