8:58pm, March 13th, 2024, Laundry, UT

I woke up yesterday with the plans of touring a potential place to live in 5 months. I will go to sleep tonight with confirmation that I am moving in 2.5 months to that exact place on June 1st. My application went through extremely quickly and I was approved and accepted. In a matter of 1 day, my life's trajectory was shifted substantially. I am very grateful man. I worked hard as shit to make this happen. We can call this Milestone 1. This is huge for me personally. I’ll have to dedicate a show to why that is soon. But for now, we keep going!

10:32pm, March 12th, 2024, Desk, UT

I went and got a tour for a townhome I have been looking at to move in to this coming July. The tour went great and much better than expected. The keep it short, this place is a steal for what I need. It’s 200 feet away from a gym, 2000 feet away from a grocery store, 20 minutes closer to my job, and has many features that will be game changing (such as a garage in the state of Utah). I was anticipating and planning for a July move-in. But now, it’s June 1st. Rather than going home to think about it and try to make something happen, I committed right then and there and promised myself I would figure it out. And so I will. And it will happen.

2:27pm, March 11th, 2024, Car, Work, UT

Before all of this, I was sad as shit and very discouraged. I was living a very depressing life. No wonder I felt the way I did. My escape from that all is hard work, discipline, and fortitude – daily. Burnout is impossible to attain in this scenario because that would ultimately result in going back to where I desperately fled from. I do not want that ever again. The alternative to my grind is that, so it’s an easy one to pass up on. I will not ever quit. I will remain on this path until I die. I don’t know what else to say. This is the true genuine path to real & raw happiness and fulfillment.

9:16am, March 10th, 2024, Car, Magna UT

I talk a bit about the “Do what others won’t so you can do what others can’t” quote in the context of my life. Feels good. Life is easier because of it. Because I am willing to work 3 jobs, I have more opportunity, options, and overall freedom. “If you’re working so much you have less freedom!!” I don’t see it from that perspective. I see it as accelerating the “shitty” times so I can get to the glorious ones faster. I’m very proud of myself. I am stoked about everything in life.

8:14pm, March 9th, 2024, Car & Desk, UT

I keep toying around with the idea that taking virtually any and all advice, compliments, criticism, insults, or praise from anyone not on the same path as you is just a losing play. I don’t know how else to clarify this other than the fact that everyone has their own desires, dreams, goals, and perspective on it all. Anything they say to you is from that perspective, not yours. Therefore its skewed by default. 

The second thought was just taking quitting off the table. I feel sometimes people seek comfort or permission to quit. But if we think that through, and we were really told to quit… would we? 

P.S. Not proud of this one. I don’t want to upload it. Feels half assed and unorganized.

11:07pm, March 8th, 2024, Desk, UT

Big day today. Paid off a $4,000 loan in full. That frees up some monthly income to then be repurposed into other bills to get to $0. Currently on pace to be debt free by late July 2024. Which free’s up a few hundred shy of $1,000 per month. What a relief. Hard work really does pay off huh?

Currently working on core values, reading some books, working on the other podcast, working on supplementation development, working on graphic design work, all while working 3 jobs, hitting the gym, and more. I feel so good when I get shit done. I even thought today “there’s no way in hell I live a life that delivers anything less than what I get now.” Meaning the fulfillment I get in myself from the daily battles I face. No way. I’m here for good. Never give up.

6:55pm, March 7th, 2024, Desk, UT

Peoples reactions and perceptions of you change drastically when you’re in the process of making something happen Vs. when you actually make that something happen. I believe that this story told today is a very small scale to what actually happens with big things in the real world. You’re weird, dumb, overthinking, you name it – until it’s done and it proves to be a better way (or whatever it is you’re doing). In my case, I improved the way tape was held on our carts by saving us 12 seconds of inconvenience per tape transaction. Not a big deal whatsoever. Yet, the reactions of others were promising of the aforementioned theory in this post. 

Which leads me to the final comment of this.

People often critisize what they do not understand. You can’t even be bothered or offended. They just do not understand, and that’s okay.

8:02pm, March 6th, 2024, Desk, UT

I don’t feel lonely. I feel alone. I am on a path that not many other people around me are on. Which sometimes sucks. I am very happy despite everything i said in this podcast, but that doesn’t erase the fact of being objecrtively alone. I am happy with my life and where it’s going because I know with 100% certainty it won’t all be for nothing. I will be able to look back and see that it was all worth it. More than worth it. Like investing $10 and turning it into $10M. Well. Well. Worth it.

I have been embracing sucking and failing often lately. It’s gotten me more accustomed to ignoring and blocking out the annoying comments others make. And simply getting okay with messing up. It’s okay, it’s how you learn and grow. And I think the more I mess up and make a fool of myself, the more I am shown that it doesn’t matter, no one cares after a while, and others perceptions bother me less and less. It’s liberating. It makes me want to go try more things and mess up to further this uncomfortable comfort.

Die or grow.

8:35pm, March 5th, 2024, Desk, UT - @brquse

Yo. Financial Health just got better because I made the choice to work Sundays. Now I only have 2 days off a month, but my financial goals are accelerated. That makes me feel so ecstatic. I am so pumped at there mere thought of that. I’ll be able to pocket about $2,000/mo come Jan of 2025. That is a direct result of me choosing to “work so much” and sacrifice “fun times” with “friends and family.” Shit, I’m happier than I’ve ever been. Why is that? I’m going against social norms fairly heavily right now. And I’m thriving? Guess I’m a weird social outcast with delusional dreams. 

New apartment/condo/townhome soon. New place, new location, very hyped. Wouldn’t be here if I chose to game all day and not spend my “free time” grinding. You also wouldn’t be hearing about this if I never made the switch to commit to personal excellence. 

Life is great, and I am so happy.

7:53pm, March 4th, 2024

Self doubts. I don’t know if my idea is a good idea. But I’m not going to let this self doubt sabotage everything. Who I become in the process is the reward. Even if it is a shit idea and a bad strategy. By pursuing everything, I will gain skills, knowledge, and experience. That is nothing but good. I try to keep this frame of mind with everything now. Even if the reward of my commitments explode and I get nothing, or I feel like it was for nothing, I will be a better person in the end. And that itself is the reward.