In this surprise episode Nita shares how she lost herself. How her personal identity became so detached that she stood on the paint isle looking at all the colors for an hour simply trying to see which colors felt right, because she had no idea of the woman within. Her boundaries had been non existant since childhood and she became a chameleon who could shrink or grow to any situation because there was no Nita; only a hollow shell of a woman who kept all her feelings locked deep inside and presented "public" Nita to everyone around her.