Meredith for Real: the curious introvert is now The Curious Introvert!

When I started this show in 2019, there were a few other shows with the words curious & introvert in them, but fewer with the name Meredith. 

Now that time has passed, there’s more room in the podcast landscape for a more concise name. So, I introduce you: The curious introvert podcast. It’s still the great content you’ve come to love: curious, nuanced episodes largely featuring experts, philosophers, researchers & journalists to inspect societal taboos & cultural blind spots.

But I also hope to bring you fresh & creative experiments within that framework. Could be new segments, contrasting guest perspectives with somewhat of a debate style episode, man on the street style interviews or ones done at conferences or while traveling. 

I’m not sure what the future holds, but I can promise that it will be curious!

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What’s the difference between social anxiety & social anxiety disorder? What should you do if you’re spiraling? 

Dr. Ali Mattu was so socially anxious as a child, that he had selective mutism. Since then, he’s become a clinical psychologist specializing in treating anxiety disorders. Wanting to create more accessible mental health education, he created a YouTube channel with over 8.5 million views that helps viewers live a more compassionate, courageous, and connected life. He was the co-host of PBS’s Emmy Nominated Self-Evident, an expert on Netflix + Vox’s The Mind Explained: Anxiety, HBO’s Doctor Commentaries, & A&E’s The Employables. 

In this episode, we discuss the difference between social anxiety & social anxiety disorder, where it comes from, how RSD, Autism, Introversion & Reddit come into play & give practical tips to feel grounded.

This episode originally aired May 15, 2023.

If you like this episode, you’ll also like episode 300: BIOFIELD THERAPY FOR ANXIETY & GRIEF: RECIPE FOR WELLNESS OR PURCHASED PLACEBO?

Guest:

https://www.instagram.com/alimattu/

https://www.facebook.com/dralimattu

http://alimattu.com/

https://www.youtube.com/c/ThePsychShow/featured

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01:12 — Selective mutism (sadly not an X-Men power)

04:05 — Anxiety as evolution’s survival feature

04:48 — Why anxious people thrive in emergencies

05:02 — Social anxiety vs. social anxiety disorder

07:05 — Humans’ real superpower: collaboration

08:05 — The hidden usefulness of everyday social anxiety

09:00 — When social anxiety becomes a disorder

11:00 — Generalized anxiety vs. social anxiety

14:40 — Introversion vs. social anxiety (they’re not the same)

16:35 — Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria explained

20:05 — ADHD, rejection sensitivity, and social anxiety overlap

23:00 — Where social anxiety actually comes from

29:05 — Why social anxiety looks different in everyone

31:10 — Finding your core fear with the “downward arrow”

32:15 — Why identifying the core fear is empowering

33:05 — The terror of large gatherings explained

34:00 — What coping really means (and what it doesn’t)

35:00 — The difference between helpful coping and avoidance

36:00 — The 5-4-3-2-1 grounding technique for anxiety

38:10 — Supporting a loved one who shuts down socially

41:00 — Helping someone through social anxiety in real time

43:10 — True alarms vs. false alarms in social anxiety

44:05 — Social anxiety within marginalized communities

46:10 — Scaling social support for the mental health crisis

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Did the NFL cover up what they knew? Is football causing early dementia?

Mark Fainaru-Wada is an award-winning investigative reporter & journalist with ESPN. He’s also the co- author of League of Denial, the book co-written with his brother, that inspired the Frontline documentary by the same name.

In this episode, you’ll hear how the discovery of Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy – CTE – sparked investigations & research & denial. Mark unpacks our culture comfort with violence, the danger of blaming everything on CTE & what it took get the NFL to address concussion injury concerns.

If you like this episode, you’ll also like episode 204: ARE LOW FAT DIETS HEALTHY? HEART HEALTH & HECKLERS [REMASTERED]

 
 Guest:

https://a.co/d/0iybv8zh

https://youtu.be/SedClkAnclk?si=uAp4KvLWOCSKqGe3

Host:  

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01:22 — Has interest in CTE faded since the documentary?

01:38 — The story that launched the investigation

02:37 — Minimization or an actual cover-up?

04:32 — What CTE actually looks like in real life

05:00 — The hidden danger: repetitive hits

07:50 — Why football is harder to confront than smoking

08:43 — Our cultural comfort with violence

11:23 — The difference between TV and the sideline

12:30 — Frequency vs intensity of brain trauma

13:28 — The high percentage of CTE in former players

14:05 — Could anything else cause CTE?

15:02 — When the NFL finally acknowledged the link

16:05 — The lawsuits and congressional pressure

16:33 — Why ESPN supported the investigation

19:12 — “There is no Santa”: confronting fan identity

19:49 — How fans rationalize uncomfortable facts

21:12 — Why some people still call CTE bad science

22:21 — Financial incentives behind the doubt

22:53 — The religious undertones of football culture

23:23 — The gladiator appeal of football players

24:34 — Why football feels mythic in America

25:41 — Why youth football is a separate debate

26:11 — The question every parent asks

27:05 — Why more kids are switching to flag football

27:38 — The NFL’s marketing push toward moms

29:52 — When is tackle football “safe”?

31:26 — New rules to limit head impacts

33:11 — When marketing meets safety messaging

33:44 — Why football can’t admit its core problem

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Is it possible to age without aches & pains? Are some people just cursed with bad genes? 

Eileen Kopsaftis is a physical therapist with a Fellowship in Applied Functional Science & a nutrition educator diploma with decades of hands-on work in acute hospital care, outpatient rehab & nursing homes. She is currently serving as a chronic pain & health conditions consultant with Have life-Long Well Being.

In this episode, you’ll hear how to identify real & realistic goals while aging, how mindset & community matter more than you realize, how to navigate your next doctor’s appointment & why your insurance could be limiting your outcomes.

If you like this episode, you’ll also like episode 251: FOOD ADDICTION: CHARACTER FLAW OR REAL DEPENDENCE? [REMASTERED]

 
 Guest:

https://havelifelongwellbeing.com/

https://www.facebook.com/EileenKopsaftisOfficial

Host:  

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02:05 — Common vs. Normal Aging

04:18 — Why Modern Life Accelerates Decline

05:05 — “I Might As Well Enjoy Life” Thinking

05:55 — Lessons From Home Health Visits

07:28 — Habits That Predict Independence

08:10 — Compassion vs. Personal Responsibility

08:55 — What Healthy 90-Year-Olds Actually Do

09:40 — “At My Age I Should Rest”

10:45 — The Reality of Nursing Home Dependency

11:30 — Independence Is Not Luck

12:05 — The Social Side of Healthy Aging

13:05 — Finding Friends Who Move

13:55 — Pickleball and the Comeback of Activity

14:50 — Why Mindset Comes First

15:45 — Speaking Aging Into Existence

17:05 — When Pain Disappears Instantly

18:30 — How to Navigate Doctor Visits

23:00 — Lie #1: Tests Equal Answers

25:45 — When Shoulder Pain Starts at the Ankle

26:30 — Whole-Body Problem Solving

27:05 — Why Pain Treatment Often Fails

27:45 — Finding the Right Clinician

30:20 — Insurance vs. Cash Pay Care

32:40 — Why People Think PT “Doesn’t Work”

33:20 — Lie #2: Stop Moving to Stop Pain

34:45 — Shrinking Movement Shrinks Life

35:30 — Bone-on-Bone Pain Explained

37:50 — The Three Biggest Pain Culprits

39:10 — Sitting, Weak Glutes, and Back Pain

39:55 — Why Ankles Cause Knee Problems

41:25 — Lie #3: You Need a Stair-Free Home

42:50 — The Hidden Danger of “Aging in Place” Homes

43:30 —

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How are these abusive teen rehab centers still open? Why are parents still sending their kids there? Can’t they be shut down?

Maia Szalavitz is an award-winning author and journalist who covers addiction and neuroscience. Her book, Help at Any Cost: How the Troubled-Teen Industry Cons Parents and Hurts Kids, is the first comprehensive look at systemic abuse in “tough love” programs and helped spur Congressional hearings & GAO investigations. 

In this episode, you’ll hear how the abusive teen rehab centers featured in Netflix’s The Program & Wayward (think Straight Inc., The Seed, Synanon & wilderness camps) began with tough love doctrine, why you can legally treat kids worse than prisoners, why parents aren’t suing & why regulations just don’t stick. We also weave in the perspective of struggling parents who feel that the anti-troubled teen industry is hurting their healing efforts. 

If you like this episode, you’ll also like episode 248: SURVIVING THE TROUBLED TEEN INDUSTRY: SEPARATING IDENTITY FROM EXPERIENCE [REMASTERED]

 
Guest:

https://x.com/maiasz 

https://maiasz.com/

Resources:

Boy who was raised as a dog https://a.co/d/0bA3dxmi 

Pace Center for Girls Pensacola https://www.pacecenter.org/locations/florida/escambia-santa-rosa/ 

Gulf Coast Kids House https://www.gulfcoastkidshouse.org/ 

Greenhouse Counseling https://www.ghcpensacola.com/ 

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02:00 — The cult origins: Synanon begins

04:00 — “I must have needed that” psychology

05:00 — The rattlesnake assassination attempt

07:00 — The Seed and brainwashing teens

08:00 — Straight Incorporated goes national

10:00 — Why parents don’t believe abuse reports

12:00 — Utah wilderness programs rise

13:00 — The death of Aaron Bacon

14:00 — Moral panic & religious fear

15:00 — Good parents, fatal decisions

16:00 — Why regulation keeps failing

17:00 — Regulatory capture in Utah

20:00 — Unannounced inspections change everything

22:00 — Why traumatized kids need gentleness

27:00 — Warehouses of neglect

28:00 — Should therapy have an FDA?

29:00 — Renaming p

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What do you do if you have religious trauma, but don't want to abandon your faith?

Catherine Quiring is a Licensed Mental Health Counselor who specializes in helping ex-evangelicals overcome religious trauma. In this episode, she shares what that looked like for her, how to know if you have limiting thoughts leftover from controlling doctrine, how to keep your faith while you separate from systems of control & how to find your own thoughts in a sea of “shoulds.”

This episode originally aired June 12, 2023

If you like this episode, you’ll also like episode 156 with Joshua Harris: SHOULD SEX BE SAVED FOR MARRIAGE?

Guest:

https://www.instagram.com/catherinequiring

https://www.cqcounseling.com/

https://www.facebook.com/cqcounseling 

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01:00 — Why harmful church experiences are more common than we think

03:00 — Fear tactics, hell doctrine & covert narcissism

04:00 — Codependent faith & the pressure to feel God

05:00 — OCD spirituality & micromanaging your soul

06:00 — When people become “projects,” not peers

07:00 — Catherine’s story: trauma at seven

11:00 — Deconstruction vs. deconversion (not the same)

12:00 — “You’re in or you’re out” — high-control community dynamics

13:00 — Wheaton College & the first cracks in certainty

14:00 — Reimagining God: from judge to shepherd

15:00 — Releasing harmful doctrine & reclaiming the divine

16:00 — Why this healing can take 20 years

17:00 — Step negative three: just notice how you feel

18:00 — Interoception vs. judgment

19:00 — Exploring Christian possibilities (hello, Jinger Duggar)

20:00 — Interoception vs. introspection

21:00 — Digging yourself out vs. listening to your body

22:00 — Your body has a language

23:00 — The painful “playback” of manipulation

24:00 — Talking to yourself like a friend would

25:00 — Reclaiming the parts that helped you survive

26:00 — When submission theology hits marriage

27:00 — The hidden pressure on men to be “the voice of God”

28:00 — Boundaries, anxiety & interrupting the cycle

29:00 — When honesty strengthens (or exposes) a marriage

30:00 — Practical healing recap

31:00 — Resources for staying Christian — but freer

32:00

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If you're not happy, it means something is wrong ... right? 

Dr. Loretta Breuning is a PhD researcher & author. Since becoming unconvinced by prevailing theories on human behavior, she has researched everything from monkeys to the mafia. Now she’s not only helping people hack their brain, she’s shedding light on how the altruistic outlook may be popular, but ultimately damaging.

In this episode, she explains WHY we believe that if we are unhappy something is wrong, how simply “getting back to nature” can backfire, the problem with happiness studies & (this is important) how to start your own happiness plan.

This episode originally aired March 7, 2024.

If you like this episode, you’ll also like episode 275: IS AMBITION ANTI-HAPPINESS? REASONABLE HAPPINESS & FETISHIZING WEALTH

Guest:

https://innermammalinstitute.org/

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-happy-brain/id1377502232 

https://www.instagram.com/inner.mammal.inst/

https://innermammalinstitute.org/course/ 

 https://www.facebook.com/LorettaBreuningPhD 

https://twitter.com/lbreuning  

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https://www.meredithforreal.com/  

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02:05 — Rousseau’s “nature is happy” legacy

02:48 — Why academia spreads the meme

03:36 — The medical model of unhappiness

04:18 — Blaming society vs building skills

07:24 — Hunter-gatherer reality check

09:58 — Culture shapes how we report happiness

10:32 — Why Americans hesitate to say “I’m happy”

11:32 — Cortisol: when expectations miss

13:42 — Childhood culture becomes adult politics

14:06 — Status envy in academia

15:10 — Moral superiority as serotonin

15:48 — The “I did it the right way” trap

16:38 — Everyone thinks they’re the overlooked underdog

18:06 — Popularity: the motivator no one admits

19:02 — How biology gets politicized

23:18 — Why therapy and religion sell unhappiness

24:08 — The media and your happy chemicals

25:02 — News as a brain-chemical cocktail

31:04 — How not to throw the baby out with the bathwater

34:08 — Reward yourself like animal training

34:42

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How old is the oldest vibrator? Does self-pleasure steal affection from your partner?

Carol Queen has a Ph.D. in Sexology & a passion for pleasure. She is the curator of the Good Vibrations Antique Vibrator Museum in San Francisco, CA. In this episode, she shares the origin story of the museum & explains how vibrators went from doctor’s offices to bedside tables. She also explains why partner sex & self-sex are different activities, why pleasure should be a part of sex ed & addresses common vibrator concerns.

This episode originally aired March 7, 2022.

If you like this episode, you’ll also like episode 214: WHAT ARE RULES OF MONOGAMY? THE PSYCHOLIGIST SWINGER

Guest:

http://antiquevibratormuseum.com/ 

https://carolqueen.com/

https://twitter.com/carolqueen

BlueSky @carolqueen.bsky.socia

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01:20 — What is a sexologist, actually?

04:45 — How the Antique Vibrator Museum started

07:35 — The one vibrator with a confirmed sex history

08:05 — The hippie-built DIY vibrator story

08:55 — What early vibrators looked like

09:30 — Hand-crank vibrators before electricity

11:10 — Cleopatra’s bee vibrator myth

11:55 — Papyrus boxes, gourds, and historical speculation

14:20 — Treating “hysteria” with vibration

18:05 — Why vibrators beat toasters in 1917

18:45 — What this says about women’s pleasure historically

19:35 — Was sex really that bad back then?

21:00 — The orgasm gap explained

22:20 — The wandering uterus theory (yes, really)

23:10 — Masturbation stigma and cultural norms

25:30 — Fear: “Will a vibrator replace my partner?”

26:40 — Fear: “Will I damage my nerves?”

27:20 — Temporary numbness vs long-term harm

28:05 — Feeling intimidated choosing a vibrator

30:05 — Where to get trustworthy vibrator guidance

30:40 — Good Vibrations resources and educators

31:15 — Carol’s book and recommended reading

31:55 — Where to follow Dr. Carol Queen

32:30 — Final thoughts on curiosity, pleasure, and stigma

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Dr. Neil Nathan is Board Certified in Family Medicine and Pain Management as well as a Founding Dip-low-mitt of the American Board of Integrative Holistic Medicine & International Society for Environmentally Acquired Illnesses.

He spent over 50 years treating patients with chronic conditions related to environmental factors & now dedicates himself consulting & mentorship, writing several books for both health care professionals & patients.

In this episode, you’ll hear mold allergy vs illness, what symptoms mold toxicity can imitate, how to really test & what healing protocol can look like.

If you liked this episode, you’ll also like episode 234: FELON TO MILLION DOLLAR BUSINESS OWNER [REMASTERED]

Guest: https://neilnathanmd.com/

Host:  

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01:35 — Conditions mold mimics

04:00 — “It’s not psychological”

05:00 — Why medicine lags behind

06:00 — The mold hoax narrative

08:00 — How common mold really is

11:00 — Mold and Alzheimer’s risk

12:00 — GI symptoms decoded

13:00 — Fatigue that doesn’t resolve

18:00 — Mold toxicity vs allergy

19:00 — Immune system tipping points

20:00 — Stress, illness, and timing

21:00 — Hive consciousness explained

22:00 — Candida cravings aren’t you

23:00 — Zombie mold metaphor

24:00 — EMFs enter the picture

27:00 — Testing for mold toxicity

38:00 — Low-carb for mold healing

41:00 — Alcohol’s real impact

42:00 — Magnesium’s critical role

43:00 — Chronic deficiency mystery

47:00 — Hormones after mold

48:00 — Limbic system overload

49:00 — Vagus nerve dysfunction

50:00 — Mast cell activation

51:00 — Rebooting nervous systems

52:00 — Brain retraining programs

58:00 — Detox hygiene at home

59:00 — Why bleach backfires

01:00:00 — Dust vs airflow

01:01:00 — Water damage vigilance

01:02:00 — Detox tools worth using

01:04:00 — Balance over biohacking

01:05:00 — What healing really requires

01:06:00 — Living with intention

01:07:00 — Final takeaways & resources

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When the Redditor known as Incrediblyshinyshart lost part of his leg in a motorcycle accident & had to have it amputated, he made an unusual choice – to eat it. He shares his thoughts on mourning, cannibalism & why eating part of his own body was life-changing.

This episode originally aired July 4, 2022.

If you liked this episode, you’ll also like episode 234: FELON TO MILLION DOLLAR BUSINESS OWNER [REMASTERED]

Guest: https://www.reddit.com/user/incrediblyShinyShart

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00:00 — A crash that changes everything

02:24 — Why incineration felt wrong

04:26 — The taxidermy dead end

05:15 — Dark humor as grief language

06:07 — The ethical cannibalism question

06:35 — An opportunity you’ll never get again

07:00 — A chef, a freezer, and surreal logistics

07:58 — A meal that felt like ceremony

09:47 — Becoming part of the people who love you

10:15 — Dark jokes before the first bite

12:55 — No hesitation at the table

14:42 — Ancient rituals and modern meaning

15:45 — Growth through the unthinkable

16:47 — Facing mortality head-on

17:10 — Life keeps getting better

18:40 — Was the dinner essential?

19:32 — Connection as closure

19:58 — Looking back with fondness

20:22 — Final thoughts from Shiny

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