Honestly, when I started this podcast I had no idea what I was doing. What I would say or even if I would do this for more then one day. I just wanted to do it because I knew I had more to say. I wanted to speak and write and no one would give me a microphone so I bought my own. I just couldn't settle any longer. EVERYTHING WAS FINE and that was the whole fucking problem. I didn't want FINE forever.