A conversation with a buddy let me to making the statement "I wish people could enjoy the things they enjoy without having to degrade something else", and the ensuing conversation got me thinking about self awareness, hypocrasy, and toxicity. So I rambled a bit about it.

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This past week, right up to Sunday, has been a massive lesson in the limits of my body versus my mind. Earlier this week after over caffeinating in an attempt to have enough energy to spread myself fairly thin, I ended up crashing pretty hard for a few days, and really taking some time to think about where I am, how I'm perceived, and how I perceive those around me. Wanted to get some thoughts out there...let me know what you think.

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I don't think it's any secret that I've been exhausted, but looking into the exhaustion and a lot of the things that come with it I've noticed that I have been slowly tiptoeing toward exasperation. I can feel it in gameplay, see it in interactions, feel it in my work...it's everywhere...but how do I stop it? By giving myself grace and an epiphany: That I deserve better than what I have allowed myself to accept.

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In a world that seems to move on so rapidly from things, when people want to bury the past, what do those of us who can't do? How do we move forward? Well, it takes doing, but it is possible, however yes, sometimes it will come back and sting. Let's talk about it.

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The last few weeks have been heavy but eye opening. Give this a listen, and maybe head back and give some of my others a listen too.

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I have realized that one of my biggest shortcomings is chasing after people whom have no desire to connect with me in the way that I want to connect with them. So, I'm learning how to stop chasing. It's just that simple. Want to chat or connect with me? Now you get to initiate.

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TW: Brief mentions of suicidal ideation and bullying

I'm learning that I've let people get used to a version of me whom wouldn't speak up or speak out. I am getting to an age where it is time to change that.

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I've spent a lot of time as of late realizing that I have been swallowing problems that I've had for a peaceful life, and while I've been doing it, it just seems that not much is changing. So for me, it is time to observe the things that I don't like and to try to let them go. Forgive does not mean forget, but when cognitive dissonance makes you physically sick, it is time to draw a line in the sand.

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As hard as it is, I have gotten to a place where it has become difficult to navigate the battles being fought sometimes in the online spaces that we populate. However there is massive truth in the saying 'a friend to all is a friend to none'. So what I am having to learn, in a lot of cases, is how to let go. Remember: what you say to others, you should have no trouble with being said back to you. A right to disagree? Sure. But honesty is not an insult.

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As I work on my journey to climb the mountain of healing, I am learning it is not as linear or binary as I believed it to be. I know that things take time, but so often we forget about the 'steps back' we tend to take when making our way forward. Especially into uncharted territory. The truth is, I'm really angry about a lot of things that were done that affected me, but I don't harbor hate. And it has become apparent that that will never be a skill that I have, no matter what I experience.

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