Today is a little bit different. I am seeing myself as I am and seeing my shadow, seeing my reality, seeing my flaws and faults and fears. I am recognizing and identifying openly through a weed ritual I did. That doesn't mean that I will instantly heal myself. It means that they are now registered in my consciousness more than my subconscious and I can now begin healing. I already am healing. Seeing myself, seeing reality, trusting in myself, seeking validation only from myself.
I don't think I can help you do that but I think my words maybe propel you a little bit, hearing the same experiences as someone going through the same thing, or passed that lesson.