I almost didn't share this one.

I've been sitting on this episode for a while now, telling myself it wasn't the right time.

Trigger: I talk about ADHD, Complex PTSD and Trauma.

That it was too raw.

That we were heading into launch season and this wasn't the kind of content you share when you're trying to grow a business.

And then I realised that thinking was exactly the problem I talk about in this episode.

So here it is.

Over the last six to eight months I have been through the most confronting, transformative, and ultimately liberating period of my life.

And what I found underneath all of it changed everything.

In this episode I'm talking about:

What it felt like the first day I took Vyvanse and experienced silence in my mind for the first time at 33 years old — and why I cried

Why I almost left my relationship of 12 years — and what I found when I stayed

What EMDR therapy actually is, how it works, and why I think every nurse who has worked in the healthcare system needs to understand it

The connection between adverse childhood experiences, nursing culture, nervous system dysregulation, and why your business hasn't grown the way you wanted it to

Why I believe no one can build a sustainable, profitable business from a nervous system that has never been taught it's safe to stop

What has genuinely shifted for me — in my body, my relationships, my capacity, and how I move through the world — and what it means for how I now show up inside NPA

The thing I kept coming back to throughout this entire process is that so many of us nurses came to healthcare because we were already carrying something.

And the system didn't heal that.

It layered on top of it.

And then we try to build businesses — to create freedom and income and impact — while all of that is still running silently in the background, shaping every decision, every price we set, every time we stop ourselves at the edge of the thing we most want.

You cannot strategy your way out of a nervous system problem.

This is the most honest episode I've ever recorded.

I hope it lands for whoever needs it.

Resources mentioned:

Mel Robbins Podcast — ADHD and Trauma episode

EMDR Therapy — Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing

Yoga Nidra — body-based nervous system regulation practice

Vyvanse — neurostimulant medication for ADHD

If this episode brought something up for you and you're not okay, please reach out to a mental health professional or contact Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636.