The less people tolerated us, the more we withdrew from society, from life itself. As we became subjects of King Alcohol, shivering denizens of his mad realm, the chilling vapor that is loneliness settled down. It thickened, ever becoming blacker. Some of us sought out sordid places, hoping to find understanding companionship and approval. Momentarily we did - then would come oblivion and the awful awakening to face the hideous Four Horsemen - Terror, Bewilderment, Frustration, Despair.

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It might be a reasonable assumption that In most cases when the imagery of four horsemen is conjured, the mind may jump back to the Sunday School lessons of one’s youth. The Apostle John’s writings in the book of Revelation are no doubt some of the most thought provoking in literature. Scholars and Laymen alike are usually pretty keen on the idea of throwing their particular interpretation of these writings into the ring during any discussion involving eschatology.

But the Four Horsemen I mentioned a minute ago aren’t these. The short passage I read is obviously not from the 66th book of the Bible. Rather this excerpt is from chapter 11 of The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.

And just as The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse strike fear into the hearts and minds of Biblical scholars, the Four Horsemen namely, Terror, Bewilderment, Frustration, and Despair strike fear in the heart and minds of the struggling alcoholic.

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