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Welcome back to the fuel your legacy show. We are excited to have on this week's guest, Michelle jewsbury actually went to a coaching seminar. I go to a lot of seminars, anything I Do to level up my game. I'm doing it and chews upon on stage on a panel and shared her story. And instantly I knew it'd be a perfect fit for this podcast, my master, Hey, would you be willing to give me some of your time? 45 minutes an hour so we could get your message out there and share it because it's so powerful. And thankfully she said yes, months. And that's why we're almost in February recording this you won't hear this probably till maybe April or March, April or May but she has just done so much in life. It's gonna be hard to kind of summarize this, but ultimately, she has a mission to help people who've been through domestic violence of various sorts, who feel like they've been silenced, and not be able to share and share their story and get the help that they need. And either through personal experience or other experiences. She's going to share A lot about that what are some of the obstacles that people go through the breakthroughs that are necessary to one be willing to share? If you're in that position, what things are you struggling with personally? And why wouldn't you go? Help yourself and share that but also how to help others who may be going through that. So, so, so, so excited to share this with you. First, share something that nobody knows about you? Right? Not too secret, not too personal, but something that few people will say few people know about you.
I love the water. And I love dangerous sports. So I'm a danger seeker. So I love you know, I want to go skydiving I scuba dive all the time I've been Of course parasailing and bungee jumping. But I love extreme sports, skiing. You name it.
Cool. Awesome. So what we're gonna do, I'm gonna have you just in Introduce yourself and give a lot more history of your background kind of where you came from what got you into following this passion and where it's taken you in traveling and the people you've been able to help?
Great. Yeah, so my name is Michelle jewsbury. And I was brought up in a wonderful household with a loving mom and dad and I've got a younger brother as well. My daddy was in the military, so I didn't see him often growing up. So my mom pretty much raised us when my dad worked a lot. I mean, my mom worked as well, but she was the primary caregiver. And, you know, we moved around a lot. My father was military. So I've been to shoot like six different schools at least, and I learned how to make friends and then leave. So it was troubling, but it was our life. And we were brought up knowing that our family would stick by each other and we would help each other out. Well, test for a little But my mom trained me in the restaurant industry. And I had spent over 12 years in the restaurant industry from hosting to serving to bartend and manage. And I knew that I wanted something more. I knew that there was something more out there. So roughly 2011 I moved to California to pursue an acting career. I love acting. And I was doing well. I was producing my shows. And it was going great. So I was on my way. And then I met this beautiful man, blue-eyed blonde hair, swept me off my feet. So we started dating roughly the beginning of 2012. And four months into the relationship, my head went through the drywall. So that's kind of what started propelling me in the direction I am now. I didn't realize or understand what I was going through. I didn't understand that. It was The beginning of a domestic violence relationship. I never experienced that my parents didn't hit each other. I wasn't hit as a child. I mean, the occasional spanking, but I wasn't beat. And, this was something that I, I had no idea how to get out of. I also had no idea what it was. So I stayed with him for roughly four years. And in those four years, I was beaten multiple times, psychological abuse, sexual abuse, financial abuse, and of course, physical abuse. Much of the emotional manipulation kept me there. Well, when I finally escaped, I started documenting what happened. And when I started documenting that started coming out in a play format, because of my background in theatre, and I wrote and performed a 65 minutes solo show in 2016. All about my experience in my abusive relationship. Because I did that so many people, primarily women, but a lot of men as well came up to me and told me their stories about domestic violence. About what they've gone through. And I started to realize and understand that I'm not alone. And there are hundreds of thousands of people all over the world that experienced this. So I decided that I wanted to do something more. And I ended up starting a nonprofit organization called unsilent voices in 2017. We help survivors of domestic violence, sexual abuse, and now we're starting to be advocates against sex trafficking worldwide. When Ghana and Sierra Leone Africa, we're expanding to Nepal, and we're doing our first-ever event in Los Angeles in the US area, May 30. So super stoked about that. But I knew that I needed to speak up, I knew I needed to be the voice that to give voice to the voiceless. And I then started developing a course called our masterclass where we help people overcome obstacles because a lot of people experience trauma, depression, you know, top-level CEOs, for example, 30% of them have severe depression. So how do we break free from that? And then you also have to look at the statistics for domestic violence in your workforce. One-third of the women to one-quarter of the women experienced domestic violence. And then we're also talking about one to 10, one to 11 men experiences as well. So that's kind of how I started on the trajectory where I am now.
That is just so crazy. There are so many
ins and outs of that that I'm sure you're keeping out of the story. Having haven't gotten to that yet. No, none of it. I just told you everything that happened to me.
Let you ask me some questions.
So I'm curious when you say I'm four months into this relationship, you
experience this tragic I mean, I, in my mind, that's tragic. Your head goes through a wall. It's not like a small deal. It's not you're like, Oh yeah, that's normal.
What was the psychological process of a?
Got to see. So I have this premise in my head. We'll start with this, okay? I have a premise in my head that we have a very, very small few moments in our lives that end up dictating our lives. And often those moments come in either time of extreme elation or ecstasy, that are like deep emotional or like from a neuropsychological perspective, searing certain highways in our brain of how things are going to happen. So we have these emotional reactions and they're very brief. And then our body switches into and because of protection, either from Fight or Flight, or standstill and just and just let it happen or remove your yourself from the emotional attachment to your body so that no matter what's happening to your body, it's not happening to you emotionally. Right? So there's there are different ways that we deal with different types of abuse, but not just abuse, we deal with this. with happiness, we deal with this in all different areas of our lives, we have this small moment, of the reaction of feeling, and then immediately our body switches into how are we going to interpret this feeling? Does that make sense? Yeah. Okay. So what I want to know is, what was that moment for you at what point did you like? Did the feeling of extreme betrayal or feeling of like, what the heck is going on? And the deep rejection? When was that in that story, okay. And then what did you go to as far as how did you deal with explaining that to yourself?
So that very first incident I told myself that Paul, we'll call him Paul. He was just super stressed at work, that it was an accident that it was a mishap that I must have triggered him some way. And what's crazy is there was emotional manipulation that led up to this very first incident. And that emotional manipulation was him. You know, blaming me for things it started our relationship started wonderfully. He courted me flowers, we went to ballgames we laughed, we dance, but his praises slowly turned into insults. And it was like a Jekyll and Hyde. So he would show his vulnerable, vulnerable side and show how amazing he was out in public. And then behind closed doors, he would still show that side except he would also start putting me down like why are you doing that? That's stupid. Don't be an idiot. You deserve more than that. Things like that, where I started to question myself and my values and what I wanted in my life. So when, when that first thing happened when he pushed me so hard, my head went through the wall. I walked back and then turned around and looked at the big dent. And I was like, Huh, I got a patch that that was the only thing that I thought I got a patch that I did. That's what I did. Right? And then slowly but surely, it got worse. The physical abuse, the emotional abuse, it all got worse. And I'm a very strong, independent woman. I came from a great household. I, of course, we all have some issues growing up. So some of that impacted me, allowing myself to st