This week, we’re talking about visibility grief, loneliness during reinvention, creator burnout culture, internet gatekeeping, and what happens when your project starts feeling real.

After seven weeks of posting, the numbers are finally moving: shorts are gaining traction, the YouTube channel crossed 5,000 views, and for the first time, I genuinely believe this might work.

But success doesn’t feel the way I thought it would.

In this episode:✷ why becoming visible can feel like grief✷ navigating unsupportive people and scarcity mindsets✷ the emotional reality of building a creative career online✷ why “slow growth” creator advice frustrates me✷ the shift from fear to conviction✷ loneliness, identity change, and learning to protect your energy

Plus: short-form experiments, YouTube milestones, boundary setting, and the realization that attention is not neutral.

Extended notes & HOTGIRL Homework available on substack.

Need a transcript? Unfortunately Spotify only offers accessibility features to large creators (literally what the hell spotify), full transcript for the episode is currently available on substack 💌