What if the thing keeping you stuck isn't fear—but waiting?

This week, I'm reflecting on leaving my dream career, moving to a new city, and why I unexpectedly feel happier than I have in years. We talk about entrepreneurship, burnout, community, consumer culture, social media, and why taking imperfect action is more powerful than waiting for certainty.

If you've been wondering how to change your life, this episode is an invitation to stop waiting. Act on something!! I dare you. xx

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Topics covered on this episode include: entrepreneurship, career change, burnout recovery, taking action, community building, purpose, creative work, manifestation, self-improvement, and changing your life.

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We all love a dramatic event. Obviously bitch.

But what happens next? What's it like to actually live inside of one of those moments? In this episode get ready to pay witness live, bc we are waking up, the morning after taking one of the wildest leaps of faith in my life to date, and surveying the (honestly?) wreckage of my decisions. There's something about fertile soil coming from scorched earth.... right?

Inside this episode:

• The strange calm that follows a leap of faith
• Waking up in a completely new life
• Why I'm trying to stop looking for an escape hatch

• Action vs. overthinking
• The psychology of irreversible decisions
• Building a creative life with imperfect certainty
• Making peace with backup plans
• Recovering from optimization culture
• Identity, reinvention, and being seen
• Why I'm choosing authenticity over looking impressive
• The freedom that comes from letting others think what they want to think about you (ex: you're embarrassing)




Thank you for listening! As always, extended show notes, bonuses, transcripts and extended accessibility options are available on substack. xx 🖤🍀

After a short publishing break, V returns with a bonus episode recorded on location during a major life transition. Reflecting on missed deadlines, perfectionism, and the difference between commitment and flawless execution, she explores the idea of bringing "someday" into the present.

The episode follows a pivotal moment: choosing to let go of hard-earned stability in order to pursue an opportunity that could dramatically accelerate her creative future. Along the way, V unpacks fear, resilience, action, and the surprising realization that the life she's been dreaming about may be much closer than she ever imagined.

It's an honest conversation about compressing timelines, trusting imperfect action, and discovering that the biggest breakthroughs often come not from certainty, but from simply continuing to walk toward the life you want.

This week we're talking about:

• Why perfectionism isn't the same thing as commitment
• What happens when "someday" becomes right now
• Letting go of hard-earned stability to make room for bigger opportunities
• Why action quiets fear better than certainty ever will
• Compressing long-term dreams into much shorter timelines
• Learning to trust imperfect, resilient progress instead of flawless execution

I'm recording this in real time, before I know exactly how everything unfolds. Think of it as a snapshot from the edge of a leap.

If you've been waiting for permission to start before you feel ready, maybe this is it.

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This week, we're recording on location and standing at the edge of a major life transition.

After months of planning, dreaming, and building in the background, I'm making a choice that removes some of my exit doors and commits me more fully to the creative life I'm trying to build. It's exciting. It's terrifying. And it feels a lot less glamorous than I imagined.

We talk about going all in, closing the gap between who we want to be and how we actually spend our time, and the surprising peace that comes from stopping the daily debate and simply committing to the path.

Plus: a small dating update, some reflections on momentum, and why I think the biggest obstacles in our lives might not be the ones in front of us—but the stories we've been carrying about what's possible.

Here's to taking the next step.

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This week is a messy one.

A short video unexpectedly takes off. The project starts showing real signs of life. A promising new crush enters the picture. A big transition is on the horizon.

By all appearances, things are moving in the right direction.

So why do I feel terrible?

In this episode, I unpack a week of anxiety, self-sabotage, missed goals, strange media rabbit holes, unexpected eating disorder triggers, creative frustration, internet doom, and the uncomfortable realization that I might be much better at surviving bad situations than sustaining good ones.

We talk about the pressure to stay informed in an age of constant catastrophe, the strange loneliness of pursuing work you actually care about, why criticism can linger long after you've stopped respecting the people who gave it, and what happens when success arrives before you've emotionally prepared for it.

It's vulnerable. It's rambling. It's probably more honest than is advisable.

But if you've ever found yourself overwhelmed by a life that is objectively improving, this one's for you.

Thanks for being here.

— V

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This week, I finally explain what this project actually is.

We talk about:

• rebuilding after a public career collapse
• the “dream job” that turned into golden handcuffs
• entrepreneurship, ambition, and being told to play small
• why posting online felt genuinely terrifying
• the four-month creative stall before I started
• creator fear, social media growth, and short-form strategy
• the 3-month sprint I’m using to try to hit 100K

Also: I officially make a very audacious prediction for where this project will be by August.

This is the most honest episode yet.

Timestamps:

00:00 — What This Project Actually Is

• clarifying the show’s identity
• branding, “corporate pink lesbian girlboss” aesthetic
• defining the podcast as an anonymous audio diary

01:00 — Career Collapse + Rebuild Arc

• having the “dream job”
• public downfall and social fallout
• rebuilding life from zero
• realizing traditional employment wasn’t aligned

05:50 — Entrepreneurship + Playing Small

• “capital D Dream” vs socially acceptable dreams
• entrepreneurship culture and discouragement
• wanting to build something meaningful
• women/femmes/queer ambition being framed as selfish

10:00 — Why Posting Online Felt Terrifying

• nervous-system panic around visibility
• feeling physically unsafe posting online
• the four-month stall before starting

12:00 — Unsupportive Relationships + Fear

• limiting beliefs from inner circle
• breakup + social boundary shifts
• needing encouragement instead of amplified fear

18:00 — The Creative Accountability Club

• weekly creator calls
• accountability + momentum
• realizing action mattered more than preparation

20:00 — Why the Anonymous Project Exists

• wanting a real-time founder diary
• frustration with polished success stories
• documenting the beginning honestly
• anonymous podcast vs face-forward brand

24:00 — Fear Dissolving Through Action

• posting consistently reducing fear
• finding confidence through repetition
• realizing the project helps other people too

25:00 — Shorts Strategy + First Growth

• adding short-form distribution
• first viral-ish clips
• strangers discovering the project
• dislikes, unfollows, and growth spikes

29:00 — Sustainable Creativity vs Sprinting

• creative accountability partner differences
• sustainable pace vs intense scaling
• deciding to pursue aggressive growth

32:00 — Platform Strategy Breakdown

• YouTube as the “crown jewel”
• TikTok algorithm thoughts
• Instagram unexpectedly outperforming
• promotional/distribution strategy

37:00 — Recalibration + Emotional Slump

• burnout, procrastination, apartment/workflow reset
• “we rest, we don’t quit”
• listening to motivational creator podcasts

39:00 — Compressing Timelines

• audacious goal-setting
• aggressive creator growth mindset
• deciding to fully commit

41:00 — The 100K Goal Announcement

• publicly declaring the goal: 100K subscribers by August 21st
• current metrics and starting point
• belief, experimentation, and momentum

46:00 — Creator Systems + Boundaries

• avoiding Instagram DMs
• production scheduling
• weekly systems and structure

49:00 — The 3-Month Growth Plan

• long-form as top priority
• 2 long-form videos/week
• 2 short-form posts/day
• additional promotional content
• viral attempts + content pyramid

57:00 — Carousel + Storytelling Strategy

• multi-format storytelling
• image/text posts
• platform-specific experimentation

1:00:00+ — Scheduling + Creator Infrastructure

• Meta Business Suite chaos
• workflow systems
• scaling content production sustainably-ish lol

Thank you for listening!!

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This week, we’re talking about visibility grief, loneliness during reinvention, creator burnout culture, internet gatekeeping, and what happens when your project starts feeling real.

After seven weeks of posting, the numbers are finally moving: shorts are gaining traction, the YouTube channel crossed 5,000 views, and for the first time, I genuinely believe this might work.

But success doesn’t feel the way I thought it would.

In this episode:✷ why becoming visible can feel like grief✷ navigating unsupportive people and scarcity mindsets✷ the emotional reality of building a creative career online✷ why “slow growth” creator advice frustrates me✷ the shift from fear to conviction✷ loneliness, identity change, and learning to protect your energy

Plus: short-form experiments, YouTube milestones, boundary setting, and the realization that attention is not neutral.

Extended notes & HOTGIRL Homework available on substack.

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ie: how to become impossible to ignore.

Six weeks ago, I was completely paralyzed by fear.

Now? I've gone from zero to over 1K monthly viewers. My channel is growing, strangers are finding my work, opportunities are appearing out of nowhere, and for the first time in a long time, building my dream life actually feels… good.

In this episode, we talk about:

• why “going around the mountain” is often smarter than fighting gatekeepers head-on
• the emotional reality of starting a creative career online from zero
• optimism as rebellion in an algorithmically cynical world
• YouTube growth metrics, early traction, and what the numbers actually mean
• the psychology of identity change
• why generosity creates momentum
• the 100 rejection letter project
• and the exact moment I realized this project might really work.

Also: Spotify roasted me for having zero listeners.

&&& someone I deeply admire found my work this week… and reposted it  ♡

Yeah. juicy

We need to talk.

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this is what no one tells you about “just start before you’re ready.”

it’s not giving fearless. it’s giving:

• avoidance
• spiraling
• pushing things to tomorrow (again)
• and lowkey feeling like your life might implode if you actually follow through

this bonus episode is a real-time voice note from the edge of doing the thing —
before it’s posted, before the confidence kicks in, while the fear is still loud.

we get into:

• the procrastination loops that look rational but aren’t
• the physical anxiety of being seen (and still choosing it)
• the weird, painful reality of people not supporting you how you expected
• and the shift from abandoning yourself… to actually backing yourself

also: something surprising is happening.

limiting beliefs that used to feel permanent?
they’re… not hitting the same.

and that changes everything.

this one is raw, a little emotional, and honestly kind of a turning point.

if you’ve been circling something you know you need to do —
this is your sign to stop waiting and meet yourself in the middle.

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What if hitting $100K in a year wasn’t a fantasy… but a system?

In this episode, I’m breaking down the exact strategy I’m using to go from zero audience, zero momentum, and zero revenue to a $100K+ online business in 12 months — in real time.

This is not a “get rich quick” fantasy. It’s a raw, behind-the-scenes look at what it actually takes to build something from nothing:

• the numbers
• the platforms
• the uncomfortable decisions
• and the moments where it feels like I might be completely screwing up my life

We get into:

• The content strategy I’m betting on (and why I’m prioritizing YouTube over everything else)
• How I’m turning content into multiple income streams (ads, brand deals, digital products, and more)
• The real math behind reaching $100K+ (and what most people get wrong)
• Why I’m forcing myself to make one “bold ask” every week — and what happened when I got ignored
• My unfiltered thoughts on cancel culture vs. “tear-down culture”
• The psychological shift from “I’m different” to “I need to play the game to win”
• And… the slightly unhinged backup plan that could potentially 2–3x my income if everything goes sideways

This episode is part strategy, part therapy session, part live experiment.

If you’ve ever thought about:

• starting an online business
• building a personal brand
• making money from content
• or just getting out of the system and doing your own thing

…this is for you.

I’m not teaching from the finish line.
I’m documenting from the beginning.

And we’re seeing if this actually works.

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