For eight years, I prayed for one thing.
A baby.
When the prayers seemed unanswered, I finally reached the place where I told God,
"If motherhood isn't Your plan for me... please take this desire away."
What happened next wasn't anything I could have imagined.
A nursery painted before there was a baby.
An adoption journey.
A heartbreaking failed placement.
A scheduled hospital visit to meet our son.
A positive pregnancy test at 2:00 in the morning.
Two boys born just six months apart.
Looking back, I can see that while I thought God was silent, He was quietly weaving together a story far more beautiful than the one I had been trying to write myself.
If you're waiting...
If your prayers haven't been answered the way you hoped...
Or if you're wondering whether God is still working behind the scenes...
This conversation is for you.
Continue the journey and find this week's Companion Guide at:
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Extended Show Notes
Episode Summary
Have you ever looked back over your life and realized that God was quietly writing a story far more beautiful than the one you had imagined?
In this deeply personal episode, I share the journey that changed the way I understand unanswered prayer forever.
After eight years of infertility, I finally surrendered my dream of motherhood to God. I stopped asking Him to simply give me a baby and instead prayed that His will would be done—even if it looked completely different than my own.
What followed was a story I never could have written.
From decorating a nursery before there was a baby...
to walking through the heartbreak of a failed adoption placement...
to meeting our son for the first time...
to discovering I was already twelve weeks pregnant the very night we brought him home...
this episode is a reminder that God's plans are often unfolding long before we can recognize them.
If you're waiting...
wondering...
or trying to trust God with a chapter that doesn't yet make sense...
I hope this conversation reminds you that He is still writing your story.
In This Episode
• The eight-year infertility journey that changed my faith
• Why I stopped praying for a baby—and started praying for God's will
• How a New Testament reading challenge became the foundation of my trust in God
• Decorating a nursery before we knew if we'd ever bring a baby home
• The adoption journey that taught us to love with open hands
• A heartbreaking failed placement that became part of our story
• The unexpected phone call that changed everything
• Meeting James just twenty minutes after he was born
• Discovering I was already twelve weeks pregnant the night we brought him home
• Why God often writes stories far beyond our imagination
Key Takeaways
• Surrender doesn't happen in one prayer—it becomes a daily practice.
• God's silence is not the same as God's absence.
• Sometimes the greatest work God is doing is preparing our hearts before He changes our circumstances.
• Every chapter matters—even the ones we wish had ended differently.
• Looking backward often reveals God's faithfulness in ways we couldn't see while we were living the story.
Scripture
James 1:17
"Every good and perfect gift comes from above..."
Proverbs 3:5–6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding..."
Romans 8:28
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him..."
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you..."
Continue the Journey
This week's Episode Companion Guide expands on today's conversation with:
• Additional behind-the-scenes stories that didn't make the episode
• Guided reflection questions
• Scripture meditation
• Journaling prompts
• Space to recognize God's fingerprints in your own story
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